Dying of a broken heart
By bonnie
@bunnybon7 (50970)
Holiday, Florida
May 3, 2019 1:58am CST
I am up at 2 am very sick thinking on that. Once long ago I thought that could not be true but now I am thinking it is true,
My demise started right after hubby died. in 2002. to get through it I focused on my job, new house, and my 2 wonderful dogs.
2004 lost my best job I ever had after 8 yrs of taking care of elderly couple .I figured I was fine. Several others wanted my help. Still had my dogs, my home and my health.
2005 got H-Pylori a stomach bacteria that really knocked me down again. Lost my house and moved here with daughter to help get me better. Got a mobile home on my own again after loosing my big dog . Still had my Coco dog.
Being lonely it was a struggle and oldest son talked me into moving back to AZ with him in 2008.
Then 2015 he decided to sell and move to N.Y. with his girl friend that does not want me around. Moved back here to Florida with daughter and brought my Coco while on oxygen 24/7 and walking with a walker.
Lost Coco in 2017 I think. starting to get confused on time at this point. 
So literally think I have been dying of a broken heart since hubby passed. Just what being up suffering with breathing and pain issues got me thinking about. So there you have it. What do you think? Can some one die of a broken heart ?
photo of me back in '95 when I married my hubby John. so happy then.
So literally think I have been dying of a broken heart since hubby passed. Just what being up suffering with breathing and pain issues got me thinking about. So there you have it. What do you think? Can some one die of a broken heart ?
photo of me back in '95 when I married my hubby John. so happy then.31 people like this
26 responses
@lovinangelsinstead21 (36847)
• Pamplona, Spain
3 May 19
There are times when I don´t know what to say but to give you a big enormous teddy bear hug Bun hope it reaches you.
Again its the first thing I think of when I read this.
Courageous girl that you are.
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@bunnybon7 (50970)
• Holiday, Florida
3 May 19
thank you sweetheart it's appreciated. back at you
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@bunnybon7 (50970)
• Holiday, Florida
6 May 19
i just get so tired of going through it.
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@bunnybon7 (50970)
• Holiday, Florida
6 May 19
it is supposed to be mutual support .Her giving help while I give financial. but at times it seems she don't want to do much
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@janethwayne (5191)
• Philippines
3 May 19
You look very nice in that picture.Just keep on praying and nothing is impossible.
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@bunnybon7 (50970)
• Holiday, Florida
3 May 19
yes I do that. No choice but to beg God for mercy at times.
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@bunnybon7 (50970)
• Holiday, Florida
3 May 19
thank you so much. you are kind. you should see how much a pretty person can go down after all that.
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@Aansh13 (11433)
• New Delhi, India
3 May 19
@bunnybon7
Things will surely be fine....
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@much2say (57760)
• Los Angeles, California
4 May 19
Such a beautiful photo of you 
! These difficult times have certainly tested your heart . . . a heart can be broken, but it still keeps a beat . . . there's always a chance to keep going forward. Broken doesn't have to mean the end - it could mean that it's that much stronger and courageous because of all that it's been through.
! These difficult times have certainly tested your heart . . . a heart can be broken, but it still keeps a beat . . . there's always a chance to keep going forward. Broken doesn't have to mean the end - it could mean that it's that much stronger and courageous because of all that it's been through. 1 person likes this
@bunnybon7 (50970)
• Holiday, Florida
5 May 19
possibly . But I also say If these things make me stronger, I should be able to pick up a truck bu now like super woman.
like super woman.1 person likes this
@inertia4 (27978)
• United States
25 Jun 19
Wow, that is sad and hard to deal with. Yes I do believe someone could die of a broken heart. It is amazing how life just throws these curve balls. I had a heart attack back in October of 2018. Ever since then I have not been the same. I am also not happy about it. It did interfere with many plans I had. But I have no choice but to deal with what I have. Keep you head up and stay as strong as you can. That is really the best advice I could give anyone.
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@bunnybon7 (50970)
• Holiday, Florida
25 Jun 19
It is and I was wondering the other day what happened to you. But didn't take time to look you up. Hope you are pretty well on the mend now
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@bunnybon7 (50970)
• Holiday, Florida
25 Jun 19
@inertia4 yes I know the feeling. I wake up all the time surprised that I am still here
Have you gotten a second opinion ?
Have you gotten a second opinion ?1 person likes this
@inertia4 (27978)
• United States
25 Jun 19
@bunnybon7 I hope so. But I don't think I will ever be the same as I was. I am just pacing myself these days. They tell me I have less than 20 percent of my heart working. But I have days that I feel great, but my doctor says it is a patient by patient basis with the heart. Look, I will keep going until I stop going.
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@bunnybon7 (50970)
• Holiday, Florida
5 May 19
Fantastic memory you have there dear. So many things have happened the past few years I can barely remember what terrible thing was last or when.
I remember now and still I feel like going over and over why she got those seizures and if the vet just missed something. 
thank you
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@bunnybon7 (50970)
• Holiday, Florida
6 May 19
@LadyDuck I am not so sure. he seemed to care more about the money and never really said what it might be. Had her there several times. Just ordered more tests. Like doctors are doing with me right now
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@LadyDuck (502523)
• Italy
6 May 19
@bunnybon7 Poor Coco, I am pretty sure the vet did everything he could do to save her.
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@bunnybon7 (50970)
• Holiday, Florida
3 May 19
yes I can see that. Times when I feel like that. Like what's the point you know
I think you got it figured out. 
I think you got it figured out. 1 person likes this
@bunnybon7 (50970)
• Holiday, Florida
3 May 19
@simone10 oh darling, so sorry. some things we never get over. Did you marry someone else later or just never got married at all.? maybe before that?
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@bunnybon7 (50970)
• Holiday, Florida
4 May 19
@simone10 I know what you mean. Once we find that perfect one no one else compares.
you just wonder why he was taken from you.
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@CookieMonster46 (13453)
• United States
7 May 19
Yes some do, some never get over a loss of a loved one. When you have a cycle like that of bad your health may decline as did mine from 2011. My ex let, 2012, the company I worked for closed from there bad has happened once a year.
I try and keep busy and now need to focus on my health.
You have to be brave and everything will fall into place.
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@bunnybon7 (50970)
• Holiday, Florida
7 May 19
i sure wish it would before I die.
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@CookieMonster46 (13453)
• United States
7 May 19
@bunnybon7 oh no , long life ahead for you
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@mom210 (9170)
• United States
6 May 19
you look so beautiful. Yes you have had some hard times, and perhaps may be on to something. But you are still her so there is more work for you to do before you can move on to be with your husband. You have had some hard times and losing our spouse is just one of the hardest things to have to deal with.
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@bunnybon7 (50970)
• Holiday, Florida
8 May 19
@mom210 it kind of depends on if my breathing can handle it. some odors seem to bother my senses and take my breathe too much, not sure why as others can handle some I can't . I might give it a try I guess if it;s to help breathing
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@bunnybon7 (50970)
• Holiday, Florida
6 May 19
thank you. God may have more for me. Just wish he would help me feel better while I am here.
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@mom210 (9170)
• United States
8 May 19
@bunnybon7 I can't remember if I asked you about trying some essential oils. I have Jasmine I hang around my neck, it seems to help.it may be worth a try.
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@florelway (23339)
• Cagayan De Oro, Philippines
4 May 19
I admire you for writing what you've been through, it's a tough one, you may have lost a partner but you are still around all these years.
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@bunnybon7 (50970)
• Holiday, Florida
4 May 19
and at this point I have begun to wonder why I am still here. 
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@florelway (23339)
• Cagayan De Oro, Philippines
4 May 19
@bunnybon7 because life is beautiful and we want to enjoy it.
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@GardenGerty (169479)
• United States
8 May 19
Yes, heartaches can cause physical problems. At two in the morning all those thoughts come to the front, but you are always carrying them anyway. Hubs for you. I agree, when lots of sad things happen we begin to lose track of time.
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@bunnybon7 (50970)
• Holiday, Florida
9 May 19
thank you. especially when we just keep getting sicker
@marguicha (230350)
• Chile
3 May 19
There are some pains that are just too much. I hope that for a moment you can see your glass half filled instead of half empty. I have gone through awful times and the scars are there. But I chose to survive.
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@bunnybon7 (50970)
• Holiday, Florida
3 May 19
You sure have sweetie and you are also such a strong kind person.
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@crazyhorseladycx (39503)
• United States
4 May 19
beautiful bride! i'm saddened that'cher heart 'tis so heavy, hon. my thoughts? the meds they put'cha'n fer the gut troubles caused other systems to fail :( inflammation could be the root cause 'f much that ails ya, but good luck findin' a doc who'd do the necessary testin' 'n then help ya heal. sendin' hugs 'n love yer way ~
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@bunnybon7 (50970)
• Holiday, Florida
4 May 19
thank you sweetheart. glad to see you. Yes doctors don't seem to be like they used to be. Everything needs a specialist. If you ask them to look into any certain part, they refer you to a specialist. 
It's like they are not even as helpful as nurses any more and get paid so much more. Maybe I will get lucky and one will stumble on what's wrong.
hugs and loves to you too, hun
It's like they are not even as helpful as nurses any more and get paid so much more. Maybe I will get lucky and one will stumble on what's wrong.
hugs and loves to you too, hun 1 person likes this
@Courtlynn (67089)
• United States
9 May 19
I dont know if people can, but i know others believe it.. though usually it happens within a year of the other dying.. so that makes me think no, for you. However, you have had it rough, since he passed. And that stinks.
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@bunnybon7 (50970)
• Holiday, Florida
10 May 19
yes times we can pretty much pinpoint when our health started down that slippery slope
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@MissNikki (5234)
• Maple Ridge, British Columbia
6 May 19
I'm glad you made it through all those hard times. Sending you hugs.
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@bunnybon7 (50970)
• Holiday, Florida
6 May 19
So far but doesn't seem over yet. Maybe life is just about living through one after the other with all of us.
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@bunnybon7 (50970)
• Holiday, Florida
8 May 19
My pain can not compare to yours. Loosing a child would be the worst. It is a real feat on your part to survive that. 
kudos to your strength sweetie
Than k God I haven't went through that yet. I pray I never have to and I pray for you too.
kudos to your strength sweetie
Than k God I haven't went through that yet. I pray I never have to and I pray for you too. 