Fibromyalgia: The Struggle is Real

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I have been working really hard to work on myself physically. It is my number one priority. I start the day with 25 minutes of stretching after I get out of the shower. In the afternoon I get on the treadmill for an hour. For the most part I walk at a fast pace, and throw in the occasional 1-minute jog. Yesterday, it was brutal. I could not get through 15 minutes without taking a break. The pain in my legs, shins, feet... it was just too much. I powered through taking frequent breaks. By the 45 minute mark I was feeling good enough to keep going. But I really wanted to give up. This exercise regimen is to prevent further issues with my kidneys, to prevent family loaded diabetes and heart disease, to help my fibromyalgia (exercise doesn't really help fibromyalgia), and to lose weight as I am overweight. I've checked the scale and at one point my weight went up 2 pounds and I felt really dejected. I am pushing myself so hard and to what end? Hopefully to prevent those diseases but in order to prevent those diseases I have to get my weight down. Today I got on the scale and was thrilled to see I am at the lowest I have been since I started being diligent with this regiment in March. Happy dance and motivation to keep going. As for my earlier comment about exercising not helping fibromyalgia, that is not entirely true. Moving keeps the muscles from atrophying. BUT, it doesn't CURE fibromyalgia as the first doctor who diagnosed me said it would... in six months. Exercise is not helping me sleep better at night and it's not raising my serotonin levels. I'm not happier when it is causing so much pain. And seeing little results also keeps my mood from lifting. So, weight is down, back to the treadmill today. Let's hope it is not as painful a struggle as it was yesterday.