Remembering a friend
By Faye
@FayeHazel (40248)
United States
April 13, 2021 3:03pm CST
I know my most recent post was about my friend's lung cancer diagnosis... and unfortunately I write this post to tell you that my friend passed away on March 21st on account of the COPD and Lung cancer that she had. I know it's been more than 3 weeks but I'm still just shocked.
Rationally my brain knows that she is not hurting, she is in a better place and that her soul goes on... but my heart isn't ready to accept that yet.
I considered her my closest friend and confidant .... and while this doesn't change a close friendship, or in other words I'm still her friend and she, mine - on whatever realm she is in now.... she isn't here physically to have late night conversations and adventures with. There will be a party for her on May 1st - this was as per her wishes.
I have felt mostly like sleeping for this past time and I suppose that is depression ... I'm trying to not fall off into the black hole of depression completely . And it's shock too.
I'm sure I will post much more about her, as writing helps me to process.
Thank you all for reading
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16 responses
@rakski (112925)
• Philippines
15 Apr 21
@FayeHazel it is okay to grieve but learn and know what your friend will think if you have been sad all these time
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@FayeHazel (40248)
• United States
17 May 21
@rakski Thanks friend. You're right. She doesn't want my sadness
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@FayeHazel (40248)
• United States
14 Apr 21
Thanks for the kindness. I know she wouldn't want me to be sad, still though....
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@Laurakemunto (12862)
• Kenya
13 Apr 21
Am so sorry for your loss and I know how hard and sad it is to lose a loved one. My deepest condolences. May you be filled with strength and peace from above and may she dance with the angels.
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@FayeHazel (40248)
• United States
14 Apr 21
Thank you so much for the kindness -- yes, while we who knew her hurt because we miss her - she is in a better place
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@FayeHazel (40248)
• United States
17 May 21
@Laurakemunto Yes, I believe so. She is still my close friend, even if she is "there" and I'm here.... I'll see her again
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@Shavkat (137215)
• Philippines
17 Apr 21
@FayeHazel Don't ne worried. She is in good hands now
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@FayeHazel (40248)
• United States
17 May 21
@Shavkat It's true. She is somewhere free of pain and is happy now
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@FayeHazel (40248)
• United States
14 Apr 21
Thank you... I agree, the comfort in this is that at least she didn't suffer more...
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@xander6464 (40884)
• Wapello, Iowa
14 Apr 21
So sorry to hear that. I was really hoping the story would have a different ending.
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@FayeHazel (40248)
• United States
14 Apr 21
Thanks, appreciate that... It's shocking to me how fast that went. :-(
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@xander6464 (40884)
• Wapello, Iowa
15 Apr 21
@FayeHazel How are you feeling today?
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@FayeHazel (40248)
• United States
17 May 21
@xander6464 Alas... it's been a series of alright-at-times and .... not-alright.... thanks for asking though
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@thelme55 (76476)
• Germany
18 May 21
@FayeHazel You are very welcome. Have a nice day.
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@nela13 (55700)
• Portugal
19 May 21
@FayeHazel hope you are feeling better now.
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@FayeHazel (40248)
• United States
24 May 21
@nela13 A little bit, thank you :-)
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@kaylachan (57687)
• Daytona Beach, Florida
13 Apr 21
You're griving and it's a process. Telling yourself you'll be over it, won't help you heal. You need to do that on your own time.
That being said, I wish you the best of luck and am sorry for your loss.
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@FayeHazel (40248)
• United States
14 Apr 21
Thank you so much... that helps, grief will be done with me when it's done I guess as much as I wish I could speed this up
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@DianneN (246838)
• United States
14 Apr 21
@FayeHazel I haven’t been around much and didn’t know.
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@FayeHazel (40248)
• United States
14 Apr 21
Thanks for the kindness.... I'm so shocked. I don't know what to make of this
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@Courtlynn (66921)
• United States
30 Apr 21
So sorry Faye! And sorry you're feeling so low right now.
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@FayeHazel (40248)
• United States
17 May 21
Thanks Courtney ... I appreciate you
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@FayeHazel (40248)
• United States
14 Apr 21
Thanks Ron - I wish it didn't take this much time to sort out, but true and thanks, it does help to be thankful for those happy memories
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@1creekgirl (40523)
• United States
15 Apr 21
Oh, Faye, I'm so sorry. Praying that God will comfort you and her family.
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@FayeHazel (40248)
• United States
14 Apr 21
Thanks... like you say , there's not many positives to this other than, maybe - that it went quickly at least she isn't suffering.... but that's about it
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@FayeHazel (40248)
• United States
17 May 21
@porwest SO true there... Like with a pet - we want them to pull through and stay with us, but sometimes it becomes evident that there is one painful and right thing to do
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@porwest (78761)
• United States
16 Apr 21
@FayeHazel No one wants anyone to suffer, that's for sure.
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