I am absolutely FURIOUS!!!!

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Usually I don't get this angry, but my "friend" is pushing the straw and the camel's back thing too far. I guess I should start at the beginning. I reconnected with a friend that I hadn't been in contact with for quite a few years. I figured that they had straightened out their lives and wouldn't be borrowing from me any more. Boy was I wrong!!! Back in May, when it was 110 degrees in the shade, this friend needed money and couldn't wait for the mail to bring it to her the next day....plus she needed some personal items. She kept harping on them and trying to find someone to loan them money and her being able to get to the store until I blew a fuse. I got on my scooter and rode the 15 miles in the heat, bought the stuff she needed (including diet coke) and delivered it with $60. I got thanked and I told the woman that it was really hard on me because of the heat. I got the old saw, "We don't have air conditioning", like I could do something about it. I ended up leaving and riding home in the heat. I was sick for three days afterwards. Then I got the same story two months later. I sent her $35 and told her that I can't afford to provide for her because she can't get it through to her husband that they need to budget for the month. I was told that she knows and it won't happen again. It did and she now owes me close to $300. She borrowed $60 this month to pay the bill for their credit purchase that they had two more payments on. NOW I'm getting hit with her sniveling and whining that she doesn't have food for the rest of the month. SHE has to eat because SHE has a medical condition. SHE doesn't know what SHE is going to do. It's hinting like a hit in the head with a brick that she expects me to bail her out again. I bail her out and it puts the bill over $300 easily. I'm not too sure who I am more furious with, myself for falling for her tail of woe of not having the funds to get food. She has used what she had getting prepared food at the convenience store just up the street. A sandwich is over $7. I flinch at $1.59 for a hot dog!!! She is out of money by the 8th of the month while I make my money last. As soon as she is out of money she is on the phone to me about the fact that she needs....and the list doesn't stop. During the same conversation she will tell me about what she ordered from eBay etc. I tried so hard to get through to her that I'm not a bank and can't pee $50's or poop $100's. She apologizes and promises not to hit me up "for" again and by the last week of the month the "I need's" come out again. I crawled in bed, angry with the situation. Furious with myself for letting her get to me with her sniveling that she doesn't have enough food for the rest of the month, and angry with her for feeling that she could manipulate me into hauling her a ton of groceries. Yes, for a change I have some extra cash that I could get her groceries with, but the point is that she isn't learning anything from that. Plus if I should happen to need something in case of an emergency I don't have the funds. I got to the point of anger that I just had to get up and try to simmer down. I have had to spend 4 months this year short on funds, or totally out of funds because of her needful self. I can't physically keep this up as I live on a very limited income. Two of the 4 months were September and October....I didn't have any cash from the 13th until the first of the next month. I was completely and totally stone broke. What would you do? She has more than I do coming in and is constantly broke. I work hard at living on my budget and try to have some money left in the bank at the end of the month and I don't fling my money around like water. Would you be this angry at being played? It's going to be a long time, if ever, when she gets me paid back. Does the dole end sometime?