MRI and Ultrasound results....

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As requested by some, here's the results of the MRI and Ultrasound. The Ultrasound was fine. The sore lumps all around my ribcage were just fatty tissue. I am happy to get a real diagnosis rather than just a "It could be...." answer. But I can do things to try help lessen the size of them. The MRI for my neck....I was so hoping the results were like a trapped nerve or something. But she basically said it was arthritis. I am strong in many ways but I crumble a bit when it comes to medical stuff especially when I'm not that educated in a specific thing and arthritis is one of them. My head instantly thought of my Nanny who has it badly and I had a quick flash thinking "Will that be me?" I'm already in so much pain so is it only going to get so much worse? Again, not knowing exactly what arthritis is or what happens from here on out. My doctor said that it isn't severe but does appear worse than it should be at my age. I ended up crying which I apologised for and I felt stupid. I'm glad I now know what has been causing me so much pain as well as numbness in my arms and hands sometimes. Sometimes when I wake up, when trying to reach for something, I struggle to pick it up and I was confused as the arm / hand that was weak wasn't the one I was laying on. Now I get it. But I was also stressed out when she said I can "manage it" meaning, this cannot be reversed. She made me feel better by saying "Maybe arthritis is the wrong word as it's just a general term. Think of it as Stress on Joints or even Wear and Tear." Those terms sounded less scary to me. I am sorry if I sound dramatic. I only just got told this and I am still learning about it. My dad knows me and how I can stress about medical stuff so he has been assuring me that I will be fine. I kept having bad images in my head of my bones breaking down or something. Man, I don't know exactly what I was thinking. I worry if I cannot dance anymore or what if I one day become worse. But the doctor told me I can make changes at home as well as seek physio therapy which I would like to do. Typing this out, it's processing more and more that one day I will be in a position where I will have a routine of looking after it and not be stressed about it because I will have a better understanding of it. For now though, if anyone has it, or knows someone with it or can literally speak in simple terms about it, I would appreciate it. I asked the doctor if I need to be stressed about it and she said no. I appreciate that. I think I just wasn't expecting to hear of something I couldn't actually reverse. I was also annoyed because I wondered if this was my fault. That was the main reason I was crying. Was it from all the times I got depression badly and had no desire to look after myself. Or could it be the opposite of me enjoying dancing too much and I over did it. Or maybe it was just meant to be. I don't know, anyway thank you for reading the update. I just need to learn more about it. I am a worry wart by nature. But I'm sure one day I will be fine with everything.