Diary on 1st,Jan

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It's the first day of 2024,i had a serious flu since 31st,Dec,in 2023 Today is 2nd,Jan,i still haven't cured.Back to last day,i kept blowing my nose and sleeping in the quilt.I wore the jacket,sweater to warm up the body.Laid aslant the bed instead of sofa,i was like a couch potato. Flu is too afflictive,still i had to hear from the quack of my neighbors.They're my aunt and uncle.Since i was born in this world,they always tried to kill me.You can see what a hell i'm living in and why i desperately want to flee from China-A real Hell. I was too feeble to make lunch,so my mom cooked radish and cabbage,i ate lunch and a lot of drugs.when i was off the bed,i'd sit by the brazier.It's the only way i could get heat.because my family have no aircon. When the new year comes,also means the worse jinx comes to my life.That's my reality.I stopped listening the music,my head is dizzy. What should i do this year?I thought a lot,still didn't get a clue.I did everything i can do,writing poetry,novel,philosophy,history and politics,but no one cares me.They're just like the painting of Van Gogh. Surely,i couldn't compare with Van Gogh,at least,he had a kind-hearted young borther,i have nothing.Why will God treat me like this?Even if,Even if a silver lining,i also could be very happy.But all dark and evil gradually devours my belief. In the night,i felt so lonely and cold,so i opened the TV and Lamp.Miraculously i had a bit joy when flu attacked me,maybe i'll die of the flu peacefully in a long and heavy dream. The end you already knew,i woke up and today is 2nd,Jan.I still had to suffer from this hellish life.Just wish miracle could fall upon my head,or i couldn't imagine what monster and jinx are waiting for me this year. Happy New year!Everyone.Although my life is tragedy,i still pray at God for you,for those little animals,for this planet.Happy New Year.