Another Day, One Foot in Front of Another

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It's Tuesday. It's one more day closer to Thursday. We're taking daddy off life support Thursday. It's so surreal. We've bee so wrapped up in him coming home but there's nothing to be done now. I cry off and on...all day. I miss my sister and won't see her until next month. I put one foot in front of the other in hopes that I'll wake up. We knew. We did everything we could. Literally. I know he's a fighter and he wanted to live but even if he wakes up from this, his brain has been deprived of oxygen enough he wouldn't be him. So I put one foot in front of the other and just do what we need to do. I had wildland training last night and it was freezing. I can't believe a few of the members were there in short sleeves and shorts. Crazy people. I got a few more items up in the shop. I don't know if I can open by the first but definitely after the first of the year. I'm excited about it and sorry daddy won't see it. My new dress came in the other day and I'm sorry daddy won't see me in it because it makes me look good and I actually like it. It was nice to remind him and my husband that I am a female lol. I haven't been reading but I will start again. I just haven't been able to shake my mood. I doubt it'll get much better but I try. Another Nightmare Before Christmas puzzle is done. It was the 500 piece panoramic one in the three pack and it took quite a bit longer than usual. I figure that's due to the colors being the same and I was distracted. I have inservice tonight so I'll go to that and pretend to be ok for two hours. I was asked to work Christmas but I can't do that. Especially not this year. I don't know what the holidays will be like this year but it will be different. Very different. Maybe we'll put pictures around the table. Everyone's passing is so close it sounds pretty good to me. I may just do that. And bawl my eyes out. I don't know, we'll see. What's everyone else up to today?