am i crazy, or in love, or should i give it up?
By devinitly
@devinitly (93)
United States
May 10, 2007 12:44am CST
here is the scoop....i married the first real boyfirend i had at 17.. i loved him and still do... we were married for four years with two kids and then divorced, mainly because he cheated and wanted to experience other things.... fine... i was in with that although it hurt... we were divorced fot two years but talked and he wanted to get back together.... in the end, i still loved him,, but being only 24 thought i had other avenues to explore... but due to circustance,,,, wanted and needed to get back ewith him.... i still loved him... we remarried and there was another child fron him and someone else... which hurt alot... and we had anbother kid...married agian for 11 years... now, due to cheating on his part and subsequent things i did, we are again divorced .... which this time was a hard divorce..... imoved out on my own, since feb.... but again... we are now goping to bew roomates.... am i crazy? i know we both still love each other ,,, but this roomate issue is too be just unspoken..... i think it will again turn out bad,,,.i need to do this because of financial issues, but need to protect myself.... i'm scared but also want to be cold hearted and remind myself not to fall or anything....any help out there?
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@RobinJ (2501)
• Canada
10 May 07
My grandmother had a saying if you keep putting apple pie in the oven you will never take out chocolate cake. in other word nothing changes you get together and he cheats and you get divorced again and again and now may be again, If nothing has changed what will the end of this story be you will get back togethere and he will cheat and you will get divorced. What is it going to take for you to see the pattern you have made. and that is where you need to start to work on.
@devinitly (93)
• United States
10 May 07
you know, i understand that completely and deep down feel it will not be good for me to be with him. i tend to pick the easy way out that alwaysends up giving me the worst ending. i plan on moving in with him as just roomates, as i need the financial help right now, but my plan is to just stay that way long enough to save and finish college. i may be just kidding myself, but i think as long as i keep myelf in the mode of we are just roomates and don't expect anything from him, then i will keep it simple. he has made it clear we won't talk about what we are or what were not...fine! i can do that too. that way theres no connection...i'm making sure that he can't have his cake and eat it too. i think thats what his motive is...
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