I lost my baby...

baby's a blessing - a baby is a blessing
@ruthinian (2309)
United States
April 25, 2008 6:45am CST
Last month, I was so happy and excited when I found out that I am having a baby. I am 43 years old and married late. This is supposedly my first Pregnancy. But yesterday, my hubby had to bring me to the hospital because of my persistent cramps. I LOST THE BABY. It was really sad. I cried a lot in the hospital. But then, I had to accept it. I know things happen for a reason. I am thankful though that for a short period of time, I felt how it feels to be a mom... and a woman. I am hopeful. I am happy because I know I have now a little angel watching over me and there are more blessings yet to come. I have faith, that after this storm, sooner or later... I will be blessed with another life inside me.
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133 responses
• Indonesia
25 Apr 08
oh, i'm so sorry you lost your baby . but the way you accept it is so great. you're right. everything happens for a reason. we don't exactly know what god plans are, but i believe he will give the best thing for your. god bless you!
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@ruthinian (2309)
• United States
25 Apr 08
Thank you very much for cheering me up. I really needed that. I still can't stop crying. I am griving for the lost but still feeling blessed that I am alive and deserve a second chance.
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• United States
26 Apr 08
I am so sorry about your loss it is nice too hear how you are dealing with it and I am a strong believer in everything happens for a reason
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@Samanthavv (1380)
• United States
26 Apr 08
I'm so sorry for your loss. How long have you been trying to concieve? I really hope things work out better next time. My thoughts are with you and your family in this time of need. And if you have any questions about fertility and conception, feel free to contact me. I'm really knowledgable when it comes to those things.
@ruthinian (2309)
• United States
26 Apr 08
I just got married last year (07/07/07) I married late, this is my first - marriage and conception. I know at my age it will be high-risk but my desire to be a mom is greater than my fear. And my faith in God is even greatest. I really appreciate your willingness to help. Sure I will turn to you when I am ready. Thanks a lot.
@sid556 (30960)
• United States
26 Apr 08
I am so sorry this happened to you. I lost a baby when i was 30 and it is devastating, I know. It is difficult in that nothing anyone says or doesn't say helps how you feel. It can't. there are no right words for something like this. You are exactly right. The pain does get duller in time and you will move on and you will never forget. By the way, you have a very beautiful attitude. If you were trying to get pregnant....don't give up. I had my last daughter at 38. It is not so risky anymore at your age as it used to be.
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@AmbiePam (85494)
• United States
26 Apr 08
That's true. My late grandmother had her last baby at 44, and both she and the baby were incredibly healthy afterwards.
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@sid556 (30960)
• United States
28 Apr 08
yes...I carried my daughter full term and felt great the entire time and no complications at all ....we were both very healthy. I left the hospital the day after she was born. Keep up with your positive attitude.
@ruthinian (2309)
• United States
27 Apr 08
I agree with you. I need to keep a positive attitude becaus I now this is the best thing I could do for myself. Life has to go on, I need to move on.
@bagumbayan (2705)
• Philippines
8 May 08
Sorry, to hear that. Yes, hes your angel above who will be guiding and watching over you. Maybe another baby. Or if none, how about the idea of adopting one. Children are our angels, oh how beautiful are the babies.
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@ruthinian (2309)
• United States
15 May 08
Thanks for sharing. I appreciate it.
@chrysz (1602)
• Philippines
6 May 08
It's maybe too late but I do hope my words are not yet late to conole you. At least your probability of getting pregnant is higher now that you have conceived one even if it hasn;t reached maturity. ever lose hope because I know a lot of women who were 45 yet they were able to have babies. One of them was my best friend who had her first daughter at 43.Just continue praying... if you think it would help you recover if you will adopt one child for some time, then you can try it. It's the mothering to a child that matter and not how you carry him/her inside your womb. Good luck and God Bless you and your hubby.
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@ruthinian (2309)
• United States
6 May 08
You are not too late, I am still grieving but doing ok now. I really appreciate it because I still need comforting words from people specially prayers. Thanks I appreciate it.
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@se7enthbird (8307)
• Philippines
26 Apr 08
i am married for five years now, before me nad wife got married we live together for 3 years so all in all that is 8 years. since then we are trying to have a baby. my wife has been to a lot of miscarriages and i deffinitely know what you fell. me and my wife had been there. not once not twice but a lot more already. the first time was the most painful of it all. we both cried so much because we were happy when she first told me that she id delayed for her monthly sickness. then after a week we bought a preg test and confirmed that she was pregnant. we went to an obgyne of course. but i dont know what happened but we just lost it. so we tried and tried but never gave up. now we have a two yer old son whoae pictures appears as my avatar. we waited for him for a long time and it is worth it. just hold on believe in God and wishes to really come true. dont forget to have communications with your obgyne coz she/he can help you a lot. goodluck to you ruth and to y our husband too. dont lose hope
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@ruthinian (2309)
• United States
29 Apr 08
I really appreciate your comforting words, I needed that. I am still griving but with God's grace I am healing fast. I have to move on. I still have hope in my heart.
• Philippines
30 Apr 08
griving is natural.... give time to yourself to cry. i stood by my wife side on those times that she even had nightmares of those events. and it was more painful when we finally have a good pregnancy specially when it was on its fifth month were she was really scared of losing it. it was really hard for me on the comforting side because sometimes i want to break down and cry too, but i know my wife only feel safe when she can see me strong. give yourself time to cry. then stand up and face the world again. try and try until you get what you want. just be careful once you get pregnant again and follow all the directions and advices your doc will tell you.
@suspenseful (40193)
• Canada
26 Apr 08
I am sorry for your loss and for you to wait for so long for this to happen. I had a child that I gave up for adoption, and when I married, I had so many miscarriages (also known as spontaneous abortions) that when I went to the fertility doctor, he said I had been pregnant several times. I did try and got pregnant, but that resulted in a miscarriage (I was a month along) and I know it hurts when this happens. We just have to keep praying for God to grant us this request. We went on to adopt, but the babies were three months old and it is usually better to adopt when they are new born (I think it is the old adage that that is the case when you find yourself pregnant) I still prayed I would get pregnant and still pray now to bear a child. (if Sarah and Elizabeth in the Bible could get pregnant, why not me?) I hope that God grants you another baby, and that you all will remember that little one who is with God in heaven. I heard that in heaven, the babies grow up.
@ruthinian (2309)
• United States
29 Apr 08
Oh, I am sad for you too. Knowing that you have a child of your own and gave up for adoption not knowing that in the future you will not be able to conceive again must be really hard for you. But just like me, we draw strength from our faith and know that things are happening for a reason and not losing hope is something important for us to move on. Yes, we need to be strong now and keep the faith.
@sacmom (14192)
• United States
26 Apr 08
I am so sorry for your loss. I wish you all the best in being able to conceive again and having a successful pregnancy.
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@ruthinian (2309)
• United States
27 Apr 08
Thanks. I need that.
@emma412 (1156)
• United States
26 Apr 08
I am so sorry and know that words cannot help how you are feeling. I know it hurts but there are so many women that go through it. Most of the time it is nature taking charge and deciding against your wishes. I hope you will be successful in the future if you decide to try for a child again. Nothing beats the feeling of being a mommy to a little one.
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@ruthinian (2309)
• United States
27 Apr 08
I agree, but then I know I have to move on.
@Mamagee (392)
• Malaysia
5 May 08
I'm sorry....It was soo sad... I know you're strong enough to face what has happen to you. Everything that happen to us have their own reason. I hope there will be another new one coming up. Ya.. every things happen with God will...
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@ruthinian (2309)
• United States
5 May 08
Don't worry my friend. I'm doing alright now. I have all the support I need to move on. Thanks for sharing I really appreciate it.
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• United States
26 Apr 08
(Exhale)Sweetheart.....to say that i wasnt touch when i logged on here and read your post would be a LIE!! First off i just wanna tell you that i am truly sorry for what has happen to you. Like you said yourself, God does so many things for a reason. Some of things we as humans can look at and guess the reason why, and at other times we can only sit and wonder. Ruthinian i want you to remember that when God closes one door sweetheart, youe better believe he is going to open 5 or 6 more in your life. I know God saw and felt that your baby was indeed a pure ANGEL from on high and felt that she belonged where the streets are paved with gold and everyday is a good day. Instead of being here in this cruel sinful world. There is no doubt in my mind that your beautiful child is watching over you. I have faith that God has something wonderful in tore for you and your husband. So just hold your head up and take everything that you may be going through a day at a time. "When Praises Go Up, Blessings Will Come Down" I will keep you in my prayers!
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@ruthinian (2309)
• United States
29 Apr 08
Oh thank you very much. Your comforting words gave me a sunny attitude. I needed that at this point in time. I cannot hate God because he is good to me. And I see that this is also a blessing in a special way. A way I couldn't imagine and understand but still, I don't want to know anymore. What is important is that I know God has other plans for me and yes, I believe he will open more doors for me. I really appreciate it.
@pooh08 (671)
• Vietnam
26 Apr 08
I'm sorry to you and your husband. But I think the next time, you'll have a pretty baby. Wish you have a good luck in the life.
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@ruthinian (2309)
• United States
27 Apr 08
I wish too. I am still praying for that.
• Philippines
27 Apr 08
I am so sorry to hear about your baby. Nothing is greater than the lost of one's child. And being a mother, its quite hard for you to bury your child when in your mind you believe that it should be the child who buries their mother's and not the other way around. But God must have borrowed your little angel for a while. They might need her more than you do at the moment. Maybe she was sent to heaven so she could take care of you more than when she is down here. Since God just borrowed your angel, He will also give you back what He took. You will again conceive. I have a friend who had a miscarriage (twice - and all of those miscarriages she had twins). She didn't lose hope and now she got her bundle of joy and is now a thriving 5 year old kid. Just hang in there
@ruthinian (2309)
• United States
29 Apr 08
Thank you for your comforting words. Yes, I believe so, my little angel is better off in heaven with God. And he is there to look down on me and guide me, giving me the strength I need to move on.
• United States
27 Apr 08
I am so sorry for your loss. I can relate for the reason why I have my user name as Remembering 1996 is because I was pregnant w/ my daughter and two weeks befor the 5th month she had to be terminated for she had ostreogenisis imperfecta type 2 which is the brain is paper thin and the bones are like twigs. I did everything in my power to stop it from happening. I even went for a second opinion they told me the same thing. They told me that the only way that my daughter was liveing was off of me. They told me she wasn't going to make the full 9 months and I prayed long and hard to god for I am totally against abortions and I cried begging him to forgive me for what I was about to do. After they had taken her the doctor asked me if I wanted to hold her I did. She fit in the palm of my left hand and I got to say my goodbye's to her. Next month on May 6th she will be 12 yrs. old. I know she is well taken care of up in heaven and I will get to see her someday soon on the otherside. You will to w/ your baby. My heart and thoughts go out to you and your family. Godbless you.
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@ruthinian (2309)
• United States
29 Apr 08
Oh, I'm sorry to hear your story too. I don't know what to say. You have gone through a lot worse that I did and I am so touched and moved. You make me cry just imagining how you felt when you held your baby in your palm. Mine was still blood, it was only 6 weeks and I was griving because I know even at that stage it is already a part of me and life is already there. But yours is a lot worse. It was already a baby. You gave me the strength I need at this time. Thank you very much for sharing, I know it was not that easy. But I really appreciate it. I felt more blessed and my faith in God is greater. God Bless you and take care.
@deebomb (15304)
• United States
25 Apr 08
I am so sorry to hear that you lost your baby. I s such a sad thing to have happen,but as you said things happen for a reason. I hope you can get pregnant again soon. My prayers and thoughts are with you. God bless you.
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@ruthinian (2309)
• United States
25 Apr 08
Thank you very much. Yes, I do need a prayer. God bless you too.
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@subha12 (18441)
• India
25 Apr 08
its really sad to hear taht. hope you get one soon,. i know you can have another. also talk with doctor so that next time you don't have to be sad.best of luck.
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@ruthinian (2309)
• United States
25 Apr 08
Yes, I am hopeful that I will have another baby soon. Thanks.
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• India
25 Apr 08
Oh ruthinian, I am so sorry you lost your baby. I also like your optimistic spirit. Honestly, I am very bad at consoling people. But I still would like to share a small thought of mine. You don't have to physically give birth to a baby to become a Mom. Motherhood is a divine quality that exists within people irrespective of whether they have given birth to a baby or not. I have known women who had several kids but were such bad mothers. On the contrary, several unmarried women have taken care of their relatives' kids and been great mothers. Judging by your post, I guess you already have within you a wonderful Mom. Keep the spirits high. Who knows, one day you might have a child in your life. I wish you all happiness in life.
@ruthinian (2309)
• United States
25 Apr 08
Thanks a lot for you kind words. Just what I needed now. I agree with you. Everyone is capable of motherhood regardless. I am indeed optimistic about the whole thing. I have gone through a lot of struggles and trials and I know how God operates (somehow). There is always a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow, I know that for sure that is why I accepted my fate. Happiness for us is already cooking up somewhere.
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• India
25 Apr 08
Yes. You will be blessed with another baby and God's grace will shower on you. Though I felt sorry to note about the loss, I appreciate your braveness to accept the happeninga and regained confidence to have a better future. GOD bless you.
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@ruthinian (2309)
• United States
25 Apr 08
I believe that the little one who was once inside me, gave me strength to carry on too. He is my little angel now.
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@luvstochat (6907)
• United States
25 Apr 08
I am really sorry to hear about the loss os your unborn child. I hope that you will be blessed with another bundle of joy in the near future and hope the pain of losing the one you were pregnant with gets easier with time. luvs
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@ruthinian (2309)
• United States
25 Apr 08
Thanks for the kind words. I needed that. Yes, I am hopeful and I am keeping the faith.
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@littleone3 (2063)
25 Apr 08
I am so sorry to hear your sad news. But it sounds like that you are coping well. I miscarried, some years ago now, but understand abit of what you are feeling. I was only 19 at the time and went on to have 4 more children. I hope that you are blessed with a child as soon as you are ready to try again.
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@ruthinian (2309)
• United States
25 Apr 08
Stories like yours cheer me up. And that's what I needed just now. That is why I posted this to assert what my doctor told me, that I will be able to conceive again. Thanks. I appreciate it.
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