Challenge of Faith...
@primeaque86 (8105)
Philippines
February 19, 2010 10:11pm CST
You know MyLotters many times of my life I have asked myself if there is really a living God that guide us, because many times in my life I have felt being abandoned... not by family, not by relatives, not by friends, not by colleagues but by the One who have given us this life.
It took up me almost a year never visiting the church. But the point was not hating him, not believing him... of course on that times of my life I still believe in Him, I was just sort of asking myself, 'Is He Just to Every Being He Created?'. I self pity because I felt like neglected. Why others were happy while I was not?
But you know, I really feel sorry to what I have done... I questioned Him of all my doubts, neglecting all the goodness He had given to me. Just lately I begun to understand that God is Glory. He should have never been questioned of all the miseries I encountered.
I know that God had given me the way, only before I refused to follow it. And now I am always asking His forgiveness. I should have understand that life is not always 'smiles'. There are many trials that will test everyone to become more strong and capable to survive. And we should note it that He never give trials that His children could not pass, because He knows our capabilities. If we are going to strengthen our faith, we could make it.
Have you also felt this way? In what times of your life you felt like being neglected? In what times of your life you challenged your faith to him?
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@LaurenInLA (2270)
• United States
20 Feb 10
DH and I lost our only child in December of 2004 and we lost him 45 days after we lost our Aunt. With those passings, DH and I have no living relatives. We only have each other. I could never have gotten through that period of my life were it not for my faith. In 1/09, DH got seriously ill and I almost lost him. I couldn't believe that God was so mean and that He would take everything that meant anything to me away from me. I worked my way throigh it by writing a list of things that I have to be grateful for. I've continued that practice through today. No matter how bleak things appear to be we are still better off than most people in this world. Although DH won't make a 100% recovery, I still have him to share my life with. That's a lot more than some of those poor children who were orphaned in Haiti have. Maintaining a gratitude list makes me realize how rich my life really is.
@primeaque86 (8105)
• Philippines
20 Feb 10
Hi LaurenInLA, I'm sorry to hear that. I know how much you and your husband had felt about the happenings in your life. I had just lost my beloved grandma too, just few months from now and the sad thing I never saw her, I was away. I didn't know how to define my sorrow that time... but I always pray to GOD... I know grandma was in GOOD HANDS, and so your kid and Aunt. There lives here on earth were done... but God gave them the life they would cherish more--the life together with HIM.
And I appreciate much your 'listing thing', yes it could help you much. Considering and recognizing all those grateful moments/things/events that happened in our life can help us feel fine, can help us forget the pain. And trusting HIM could make our life secured, secured from anything.
I know your husband would be fine soon Lauren... my father too suffer from paralysis on his left or right leg, he had suffer for that for almost 7 years... but by faith... he is still live and kicking today... and I pray God would still give him a longer life because we still need Him.
God bless you Lauren, God bless to DH...
@LaurenInLA (2270)
• United States
20 Feb 10
Thank you so much for your kind thoughts. I will keep your Grandma and your Father in my prayers. Best of luck to you.
@primeaque86 (8105)
• Philippines
20 Feb 10
You are always welcome Lauren, I will include your kid, aunt... and your beloved husband DH to my prayers... and to all the prayers of my church/worship family here.
@teamrose (1492)
• United States
20 Feb 10
You are not alone. Most people of faith have experienced at one time or the other exactly the same feelings you are experiencing. It is when there are true trials and tribulations that test our faith. When we pull through it is a showing that God was there and everything is as it should be.
God answers all prayers. What we sometimes forgets, sometimes the answer is NO. We don't know why we were denied, but like little children whose parents have had to deny us, God treats us the same way. After all, we are his children.
Never feel guilty because you didn't attend church. You can have God in your life and feel his presence anywhere, even while in the bathtub. Just keep believing and know that God will be there when you really need him.
@primeaque86 (8105)
• Philippines
21 Feb 10
BALLS EYE teamrose. GOD answers all prayes, and I am beginning to receive them. Sometimes God would give as 'No' because He knows for sure that the 'content' of that prayer, though we think we badly needed it, has an effect to us He never wanted, because He never wanted us to walk in the darkness. We human somehow pray for some worldly things and God may prevent us from acquiring that.
Yes, you got it teamrose, I should not have felt guilty for not attending to church... afterall God never specify a place for worship, as long as we pray wholeheartedly, then it is heard. I attended again the worship of my team, but I could not attend to it regularly because of my schedule. Attending to church has still have many good things, because there you can meet many people who can share lot of ideas with you... now I am trying to go back to church and attend masses.
Thanks teamrose, your sharing is much appreciated.
God bless.
@Pose123 (21635)
• Canada
20 Feb 10
Hi primeaque, God does not treat people any different because they are Christians, Muslims or Jews or any other religion that you can name. We are all children of God and everything that happens in life is for a reason, this is also true for atheists who don't believe in God at all. We came to this life with a purpose and we will go out when that purpose is fulfilled. Many feel abandoned at times but eventually most see that there was a reason for things happening as they did. Be Strong in the bad times and be grateful at all times. Blessings.
@primeaque86 (8105)
• Philippines
20 Feb 10
Thank you Pose123... You are right, months ago I realized that God should not have been questioned. I had felt abandoned but I now know the reasons for it, the reasons for many trials I had faced before, it is for me to be strong enough to survive alone. I am on my feet several years from now, those hard times were just tests for me for the next level of life. I was dependent with my parents years ago, and finally explored the world alone... I had struggled for it... many times I decided to give up... but there was a person who helped me... a person that was totally a stranger to me... before I never thought that he was an instrument sent by God for me... but now I realized he was...
