Can't Fight This Addiction

Well MyLot, I had a slip yesterday. I can't really call it a slip as I knew I was going to the casino, before I even drove to Philadelphia. I have gambling addiction if you all are wondering what I'm talking about, and last night I hit the casino after about 3 months of being away. Last night was a horrible day, my vehicle got impounded because I was stupid enough to drive without insurance. The incident ruined what should have been a day at the park with my boys, but I'm happy I at least got to see my oldest graduate from middle school. After everything was said and done, I was lucky enough for my dad to lend me his car. Unfortunately I had this delusional idea I was going to win enough money to get my vehicle out of impound, so I went to the casino. I lost about $60 and left the casino with $8 to get myself home. The reason I moved away from Philadelphia was because they opened up a casino, and I was gambling my paychecks away every week. I've been doing good since I moved to New Jersey, but I can't resist the urge to go to the casino every time I go to Philly to see my boys. I don't know how to fight something that makes me feel so alive, but I know this problem has made me lose everything.