The rope has many big knots in it. Throw it all at me, ok?

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You know that saying, ''tie a knot in it and hang on!'' --they should add on to that saying that it is often a very bumpy ride! I thought my son was on the mend somewhat--not a fantastic improvement by any means, but I did see a bit of progress. This week it all went downhill. His blood count crashed, wild BP up and down, ridiculously high fever, and back in the hospital from Sunday night to Tuesday, then he was readmitted Wednesday to Thursday night. He's had several transfusions, and his blood count is back to what is normal for him at this time. Usually, he isn't moody and tries to remain positive, but this week his cheerful demeanor left him. He's trying, it's just hard. This has been such a hard time for him, and to be honest, hard for me and his siblings. But they do have families and young children to care for and do not live that close, with the exception of one sister, who works a lot...we are doing the best we can, but sometimes I wish I could just kick and scream for a short time or have some time to just rest and regroup. He doesn't sleep well, or for very long at a time. His appetite is either gone and he doesn't want to eat, or he is ravenous and you can't get it ready fast enough. I often say, ''I'm doing the best I can'' and honestly, that's the truth. It's just not enough to make him well right now. So, I'm asking everyone that knows me, I've asked family, friends, and here I am asking all of you--send any good wishes, good karma, prayers, hugs, whatever you've got to spare, for my son, and for me to stay as strong as I can stay. He is a good man, and deserves to have a life. I won't ever give up on him, or any of my family. That doesn't mean, however, that any of this is easy. I know many of us are having a hard time right now, forgive me if I am asking for good thoughts and all, I just...have to. I promised myself I would do that. I tied a new knot in my rope, a BIG one! pixabay image.