Am I everything I should be?

United States
April 25, 2007 3:19pm CST
Am I everything I should be? Well, I should spell better, learn how to cook, and learn to say NO! I should get out of the house more, I should go to sleep at a decent hour. I should have been taller, thinner and a real blonde. I didn't got to go the the prom*. I never had a daughter. I never went to Italy. I don't wear real diamonds. I can't ride a bike,or drive a car. I can't crave a turkey or ice a cake. I never saw my grandfather. I never had brothers and sisters. I can not sing or paint. I did not go to College. Or finish Nursing School. But.....when I think of ALL the things I have done. WOW !! So what does that prove? I guess it is that, you can do anything if you try. I will get to Italy, get out of the house more and ice a cake. Do I really want diamonds, to go to sleep early or paint? I would like to sing and get thinner, but who wouldn't? I would have liked to have a sister and go to the prom. I wanted to finish Nursing and learn how to drive. But that was not in my future. God had a plan for my life and if I was in charge I would have failed terribly. I would have never gotten to this place in my life. I have reached for the stars..and I got to touch them
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@TerryZ (22076)
• United States
25 Apr 07
And good for you. I never think like that. Im a very positive person. We should never put ourselves down. Only up up and away.LOL Like you said we must reach for the stars always.
@aprilgrl (4460)
• United States
25 Apr 07
You are right about that we are all here for a reason. There's lot of things I haven't done but I feel ok with it and there's a reason for me not to drive. All I ma thankful is being alive and that's important. Thanks for sharing your thoughts.
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@cutepenguin (6430)
• Canada
26 Apr 07
I try really hard not to think about this - I don't think anyone ever achieves everything they dream of, but at the same time, you can make a good life and be happy without having done a whole bunch of things. Still, it kind of feels bad to reach a birthday and realize you haven't really accomplished anything.
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@maryannemax (12154)
• Sweden
26 Apr 07
yup. we can't achieve all the success in the world. if so, it takes away the mystery of life already. no need to try harder and work better. so, just do what you should do and be happy with whatever it is that you achieved.
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• United States
27 Apr 07
Everyone has accomplished something. The problem is that we often don't value what we have accomplished, and therefore don't value ourselves. When I worked with prison inmates they sometimes thought they had not accomplished anything in their lives. But I would ask them about what challenges they had overcome to survive what they have survived and still be alive. And I would challenge them to make decisions about doing things that make a positive difference in the world, even while they are in prison. If they could do it, so can you. Please don't undervalue what you have done just to get to where you are. And make decisions to make a positive difference in the world, no matter what your situation. you can.
@jerryn (819)
• United States
26 Apr 07
Sounds like you acheived the best thing by recognizing that God had a plan for your life. Only you and God will know if you're everything you should be.
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@AmbiePam (120665)
• United States
26 Apr 07
That's very inspiritational! My school didn't have a prom, we had a banquet. LOL But I graduated 2 years early, so I missed that. I'm not going to be shedding tears over it though! When I was a little kid I loved to read. And I thought how said it was that I knew no one could never write a book about me because it would be too boring. I thought of that the other day and laughed. I know I have lived enough to write a book, and a bestseller at that! Every step forward we get somewhere - maybe not where we want to be or should be, but it's SOMEwhere.
• United States
25 Apr 07
Carol I have frosted a cake and ate it now I am 100 lbs over weight after losing 80 lbs. Now I have finished nursing school and worked 20 years as a nurse and now I am disabled. I loved the work but it was very very hard and very very stressful. I have sacrafied my children for work. I needed to work to support my family to keep a roof over our head and food on the table. Now I am disabled and spend time at home alone. The kids are raised and gone. What I am doing now is doing crafts for other people to make a few dollars and post on several web sites. I love my life now. When I was nursing and working and being a mom I hated my life I was so tired all the time. Carol the grass looks greener over the fence. I like your attitude about the things you have done. I do not have a web page. I do not even know how to build one. Have a great day.
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@jerryn (819)
• United States
26 Apr 07
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• United States
26 Apr 07
Thanks I will try it.
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@maryannemax (12154)
• Sweden
26 Apr 07
okey. you touched my heart there carol... that's such a nice piece. i can't stop smiling. thanks! anyway, we always dream and hope for something more and something better. we forget to be thankful of who we are now. we dream dreams and hope hopes. but we can't get and be everything we wanted to be. contentment for the present and satisfaction to where our dreams had lead us through today will keep us feeling great. happy myLotting carol!
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• United States
26 Apr 07
This is so well written. I too believe in God but I didn't reach the stars even though I feel like a star today and if I have to answer why, I won't be able to do so. I am just at peace with myself. It isn't so everyday but I am enjoying the moment. I hope that you will feel this way your entire life. All the best, Esther
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@Lavera1 (896)
• United States
26 Apr 07
That is a very inspiring discussion, Carolee. We do tend to be too hard and critical on ourselves. I remember all the things that I thought that I wanted to do in my life and did not do. But as you said God has a plan for our lives and we should continue to hook up with Him because He will never lead us in the wrong path. The Lord is my Shepard I shall not want.He makes me to lie down in the green pastures. He leads me beside the still water. He leads me in the path of righteousness for His name sake. Plalms 23:.
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@liranlgo (5752)
• Israel
26 Apr 07
Do you remember the song that was sang by Gloria Gaynor, it is called: ' I Am What I Am '. Let me share with you a few sentences of this song before i start saying my opinion to this post, because it stats alot from what i believe in. " I am what I am I am my own special creation So come take a look Give me the hook Or the ovation It's my world That I want to have a little pride My world And it's not a place I have to hide in Life's not worth a dam Till I can say I am what I am I am what I am I don't want praise I don't want pity I bang my own drum Some think it's noise I think it's pretty And so what if I love each sparkle and each bangle Why not see things from a different angle Your life is a shame Till you can shout out I am what I am I am what I am And what I am needs no excuses I deal my own deck Sometimes the aces sometimes the deuces It's one life and there's no return and no deposit One life so it's time to open up your closet Life's not worth a dam till you can shout out I am what I am I am what I am I am what I am And what I am needs no excuses I deal my own deck sometimes the aces sometimes the deuces It's one life and there's no return and no deposit One life so it's time to open up your closet Life's not worth a dam till you can shout out I am what I am. " I do think that a person is everything he wants to be, and this feeling and believe is within himself. It really does not matter what society says you ought to be, and what the media shows us, and what the neighbor next door is. You are what you want to be and you should be happy with it. By the way i do believe that if you do want to accomplish certain things in life, because you want to, and you truly believe in that, you will accomplish it. But from what you wrote it seems like you are very pleases with what you are, and that is wonderful. Keep feeling and believing that way, and you got the whole world in your hands and the happiness of life also.
• United States
27 Apr 07
This is one of my FAVORITE songs! And I am what I am!
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• United States
26 Apr 07
If you can say you have reached for the stars and touched them Carolee, I would say you are more than everything you should be. I believe I am who I am and what I am only by the grace of God. He has brought me to this place, for such a time as this, and given me my wisdom and knowledge to do the things I have done. Am I everything I should be? At the moment, I have to say yes, or I would surely be soemthing else. Am I everything I can become? No, because I can only imagine what I'll become when I get home where we belong. What a day of rejoicing that will be.
@fpd1955 (2074)
• United States
26 Apr 07
You are in a wonderful place. You are as bright as those stars. Keep shining! God Bless
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@kitkat1 (1227)
• Canada
26 Apr 07
Well am i everything i should be? I am a good mother to my three kids, i am a good person, i try to do my best in everything i do. Yes i am everything i should be. Am i everything i can be well that is different. No i am not yet cause i am always striving every day to be all i can be and the best is yet to come. I have touched those stars you are talking about and i plan to bring on of them home before i am done in this life. have a great day
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• China
26 Apr 07
i think you have to do a lot of thinks as possible as you can ! you must trust youself ,you can ,!!
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• United States
26 Apr 07
That was written beautifully Carolee. When I start feeling like that, I call it the "coulda, woulda, shoulda blues". But, like you, when they happen, I try to look at all the blessings God has broughten to my life, and all the things I have been able to do through His grace. These times also help us to reasses what is important to us; like you wanting to go to Italy. That way we can set the proper goals to achieve everything we want. Life is good and every day is another stepping stone to eternity. Blessings.
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@youdontsay (3497)
• United States
27 Apr 07
My first reaction to your post was an old phrase from my days as a counselor, "Don't Should on yourself!" Life is about being yourself while making yourself better, but not to please someone else. We each of purpose, even if we don't know yet what it is. But that isn't a "should". It's a possiblity. I spent half of my life doing what I thought I "should" do, doing what others thought I should do. But I have discovered that when I began to blossom was when I let go of people's shoulds and listened to what the Spirit wanted me to do. What freedom that brings! It was like I'd learned to fly! And from experience I've learned that when I'm going where the Spirit leads my journey is smoother, there are less bumps in the road, and life is better. Life isn't always "easier", but it certainly is better. Each night I pray that I will be a blessing to someone tomorrow. Sometimes I know I have been. Sometimes I'll never know if I have. It doesn't matter if I know it, as long as my behavior makes it possible.
@cassidy22 (2974)
• United States
27 Apr 07
OK, stop beating yourself up!! First, it's OK to think about ways to improve yourself... like learning to spell, and learning how to say no... But you can NOT spend your life wanting to change things you can't - like your natural hair color, or what babies you had. So yes, focus on the postive, focus on what you HAVE DONE! and in the end, you can't guess what god's plan is, and you can't state that you failed his plan... only he knows that. You can't put those words in his mouth for him!
• India
26 Apr 07
I do need to learn quite a few things from you !! At 32 i wish there were so many things i had done, as if life is already over...
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@mamasan34 (6518)
• United States
26 Apr 07
I have a list an arm long about what I could have done better or so on. But I think of the things that I did right and that list may be much shorter, but it is much more important to me! I am glad you post these things. You have a gift with words and I really enjoy reading your posts!
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