Demons, Gremlins and Monsters Oh My!

My biggest demons are definately my addictions (drug and alcohol) and my depression which is the spawn of the bigger demon called my past LOL...I have seriously conqured several of my demons BUT they arent completely dead nor will they ever be really HOWEVER that doesnt mean I can't keep them at bay or under control..for the most part I do that very well...There are times though when I'm not at my best and they for a short time get the upper hand which sucks but regaining that control happens a lot quicker than it use to without a doubt..

with me its the little voice in my head telling me im never quite good enough. When im bottom of my bi-polar cycle the voice is huge and loud and its not just telling me im not good enough but that im ugly and fraudulent also. If anyone says they like me, then the little voice tells me they are lying and really dont like me at all.
When im well, the monsters, Deamons and gremmlins, although still there, are silenced by my self-belief but i know they come back and any good feelings are balanced by negativity at least
blessed be

hi wolfie34. My biggest demons are actually my cigarettes and being workaholic at times. It is easier for me to control cigarettes, see, if I work that much, i have no time for smoking. LOL=) But I guess I am missing half of my life for working too much. It's actually my choice, so I am not taking any actions to slay them. let them take over me for now.

Hello wolfie
I feel I have won the battle yes.
Despite my 'condition', I feel I have a great handle on it now, due to the help of some very helpful others..whom I trust immensely for my treatment.
I have only recently got this help, and believe me, without it, the consequences would be quite severe for me.
So I can honestly say that I am winning the battle for myself, not necessarily the circumstances that surround my distress, but I can now have a handle on and better choice about how to react to my triggers.
This is with the help of good counsel and medicine..may not work for everyone, but fortunately, it is literally a life saver for me at this present time wolfie and I will take it gladly..I have waited a long time for this moment for me to have a say, and I am saying all I want now, with confidence to do so.
See nevermind about positivity if you really don't feel it, wolfie..I don't feel it most of the time, but I talk positively and I guess when I do that, it helps too.
In fact, I am so unpositive somedays, well quite frankly, I wouldn't be here if not for my son..gives me reason and purpose wolfie..
I know it is hard to deal with..please take all you can from life to help yourself, wolfie..someone has to help you with this..it is suck*ss to feel like that everyday as I do..xoxoxo ((((wolfie)))xoxoox
I spit on my demon everyday wolfie with utter loathing and that is how I get through LOL xooxoox

Hi wolfie,

One thing I observed about those monsters, they are always actively lurking around us when we are down or have some issues or troubles. We all have our own private hell to deal with.

I always TRIED to look on the positive side. I can understand how depression can eat us alive. There will be times that I like to simply give up and just let go. But turning my head, I will hear the sound of another person with a halo on her head telling me to fight and never, ever give up.

It is always a battle between the good and the evil. I'm just so glad that, somehow, I was able to pull through it all and be able to continue mylotting, lol!

I try and keep mine under control but when I feel down then they rear their ugly heads. This week they have been about but I think im winning slowly.

My demon is depression and hopelessness. I am on medication so now I am happy and well functioning. Prior to the medication I was crying all the time over nothing. Another demon is always thinking about death. I am always thinking about my being over the hill and I might only have 20 years left or less to live on this earth. I am not afraid to die, but I just don't want to leave here. I don't want to miss out on anything, i guess.

I have the Depression one as well and can not control it that is why I have to have Medication for it as it is not possible without
The others I can keep under Control most of the time like my Illnesses but only because I have the Medication for the main one
Before I became Ill yes I controlled them specially the Depression one but that was because I worked and I had my 2 Children to look after
I am sitting here now and I just want to cry I don't know why but I do but I am fighting it
In a Bit I will be taking Gissi out and that will take my mind of it for a while
I hate being like this I really do
I used to be able to cope with anything that was thrown my Way but since I got bullied out of my Job because of my Illness which has made me feel useless I can't handle things as well as I used to
How did you get on with your Incompasity B did you get it again

Theres a monster under my bed,
you know the one boys and girls.
The one with really big eyes, big straight teeth
smells like antiseptic and wears a white coat.
Thats the one I'm talking about,the DENTIST!!!
I'm not scared of the dark, or of heights, or of too
many things, (ok, maybe crickets and spiders get to
me a little) but the DENTIST, I've got a real issue
with. I mean after all how natural is it to put sharp
instruments in ones mouth and not only that to put sharp
instruments that plug into a wall socket into ones mouth?
In addition to that there is saliva in ones mouth, isn't
that like in liquid form and you want to put a
sharp wall socket electrical instrument into my liquid?
Excuse me, but how cool does that sound to you?
Now let me further elaborate on this by saying
before they put these sharp instruments of torture
into your mouth, they insert a syringe filled with
something thats going to help with the pain.
What about the embarassment as you sit in the
chair and you've got drool running down your face?
Got anything to help with that Doc? Or for the 5
hours later in the day that I have to face the
general public with a mouth so numb that I have to
wear a face shield as not to spray everyone with
my spittle when I speak.Charming.Back to the needle. They're sneaky at the DENTIST'S
office too. Have you noticed? I mean check out the
way they approach you with this huge syringe.
Always from the side like you aren't going to notice
this huge thing in your peripheral vision. And then
they pry your mouth open to dimensions which it
isn't accustomed to going. A good example of that
is the x-rays. They force your mouth open and
insert these sharp rectangular pieces of cardboard
back into spaces you didn't no existed and then want
you to clamp down on them and hold that pose.
And they don't take just one, no they have to take
20 and for what, one tooth? And it hurts, those
damn pieces of cardboard aren't comfortable in the
least. You leave with gashes in your gum lines. So
now I've got one hurting tooth and 20 lacerations and
you want to put more sharp things in there? Wall socket
sharp things? Then to add insult to injury you're trying
to sneak up on me with a syringe the size of a
clarinet? And you want to do what with it?
Well, if you can get through the procedure to this point,
then guess what they are going to do next? They
are going to get a pair of vice grips and they are
going to tear out that tooth. Yeah I'm talking
they are going to rip it from its roots. Now what if
its my arm thats hurting, you just going to twist
it out of its socket too? I've got many pieces of
anatomy and I'm not ok with even one of them being
torn from its natural habitat.
And what are the DENTIST'S famous words?
"You're going to feel a little pressure." This is
a line I'm sure they must practice over and over
and over in that big dental academy from hell.
Because you are now lulled into a false sense of
security and you can only nod your head in a passive
way, while in the back of your head somewhere
someone is screaming "No, don't let him do it, this
is the part, the part you hate the most.Run, run
while you still can. Hit him if you have to." But no,
you've been hypnotized into this Gumby like state,
endured many tortures and you've given up the fight.
You're thinking of green meadows with beautiful green
trees bending gracefully in the wind, when suddenly
the breeze becomes a gale force wind and that beautiful
tree is torn out by its very roots. You look up with
tears in your eyes and the DENTIST says "It's over,
SPIT".And I want to add just one more thing, in the
off chance that you're all good with this, guess
whats he's going to do next? He's going to charge
you for it. He's actually going to charge you money
for putting you through tortures like you have
never seen in the best of horror flicks. I am
personally not ok with this and would rather
endure having to watch re-runs of the Partridge
Family for the entirety of my life. So next
time you see a monster under your bed, all I can say
is don't scream, keep your mouth shut.

I know this isn't quite the same as depression Wolfie, but thought it might cheer you up a bit. And how do I slay this dragon, ignore him and hope he'll go away.

My demons are low self-esteem, depression and worst of all anxiety. I have a really hard time letting things go of things from the past.
I know exactly how you feel when you say it strikes you when you least expect it to. That is exactly how my anxiety works. I could be having the best day ever and suddenly my mind is overtaken with negativity and questioning. I hate it.
I am still working on it but I am on an upswing. I think this is a lifelong battle I just hope that a time comes when the fights are fewer and farther between.