Left Behind by Everyone

may i ask you a question?...if you're primary with your job, it's very common that you have this feeling yourself. though i'm just a student, but i'v heard that beginners always can't adapt to their earlier jobs...they may consider they're boring and less challenging...just now i'd scannd your space in Blogger..so fashionable and beautiful! good luck!

really, thanks.. sigh.. that's actually what i want to do for a living.. write.. i want a job that makes a difference, something that i can be proud of.. i know this is just my first job and it's just a stepping stone.. but i've spent more than a year in this job.. always the same thing.. talk and talk nonstop to americans tackling the same information everyday.. it's so boring.. and degrading in a way that they think that that's all you know.. i believe i can do better.. i don't want to get stuck in this rut.. but i can't seem to find the energy to just let go and quit.. sigh.. yeah, since you're just in high school.. i suggest that you begin thinking what you really want to do in life.. so that you can plan for it as well.. haha..

yeah, maybe.. it's just that sometimes people can't believe that i'm not yet continuing to law school or that my job's not that grand..dunnow.. i think in a way, they expected something from me.. i know this is just temporary but why can't i just go? like right now, i'm sick of my job but i don't want to resign yet until i get accepted in another job that i really like.. it's not hard to find a job, but it's hard to get into one that i really love..

i live in my parents' house.. but all my brothers and sisters are leaving.. it's not that i don't want them to go but it seems like i'm losing touch to everyone, friends, acquaintances either physically or mentally..

I understan how you feel. I remember a point in my life where that happened to me as well. Both my brother and my sister live in other states with thier families, and we only get to see each other once a year, twice if we are really lucky. It is hard, but thanks to the internet we email each other all the time. Sometimes we have better conversations via email than we would ever have in person. I still feel very close to my brother and sister because we talk via email all the time. Hopefully you can do this as well. I still miss seeing them, but when we do get to see each other the time is quality. I know that it is difficult now, but you will see in time you will have more people in your life. Also you have the opportunity to have your parents all to yourself, take advantage of this. I wish you all the best.

maybe, i dunno.. actually, they all live very close.. just the same village, some just 10minutes away.. the farthest is my brother about 90mins away but he sleeps here all the time because it's closer to work.. i don't know.. maybe i'm the one who's drifting away - emotionally.. maybe it's time i go on with my own life as well..

yeah, i guess you're right.. but even though what i feel now is not the most logical, the fact is that's what i feel.. maybe i need time to recollect myself.. re-assess where i'm going...

thanks.. it's great making friends here. no matter how far away we are from each other, people still get connected somehow..

i don't know, i feel like the world is spinning so fast that i can't catch up.. it's not just poeple.. it's my own life as well.. i know they said to take things slowly, that we're still young, but i fear that i may ran out of time.. that i need to act now.. i don't want to grow old and look back and see that nothing happened in my life..

yeah.. i guess we better go on with life and try to discover ourselves. hmm, maybe i need to go away for some time as well.. rediscover myself.. perhaps, that's all i need..

i don't know about children, i don't think about those stuff yet.. i think you may understand.. i live in batangas and i just spent college in manila, when i got back, it seems like things are different - very different.. i know that it's not that far away because it's just a 90min drive and i graduated in 2006.. but still.. it feels like i'm catching up with things here, and losing grip with my friends from school...

actually, i'm living at home.. but everyone seems to be leaving.. i just spent about 4yrs away for college and when i'm now back at our home town, it seems like everyone has his or her own life.. i don't know.. sometimes, i feel like my life's going no where.. i should act right now but somehow it seems like i'm hindering myself on moving to bigger things. i don't know what's wrong with me.