I've decided I need to see a therapist

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As some of you may know, because I think I've talked about it here, my friends keep dying on a regular basis. Not because they're old. It's just that a lot of my friends have disabilities and don't get the care they need or don't go to the doctor when they need to as they're afraid of the doctor. Most people with disabilities have a big fear that their doctor will put them in a nursing home so we just avoid going to the doctor until it gets too late. Since dealing with all of us it problematic, I've decided I need to see a therapist. However, all the therapists I've interviewed (because I'm not just going to talk about this to anyone) are really bigoted toward disabled people. They think that my problem has to do with being in a wheelchair, and I always have to tell them that's not the case. That the problem is that my friends keep dying which is hard to deal with no matter what your ability status. Does anybody have suggestions about what to do to find an adequate therapist? I'm getting desperate and my friends who usually help me are no help because they're afraid of therapists and keep telling me I'm going to get locked up in an institution. I'm a little worried about that too, but I've decided that in order to live my best life I need to deal with these emotions instead of stuffing them down. Suggestions welcome.