Are you waht you dreamed off?? or you are just too scared?

I think I am a little bit of both of what I dreamed of and what I wanted in life. For as long as I could remember I wanted to be a mom but some deep fear in me said I couldn't have kids. As I grew up I found out from doctor's that yes I had infertility problems. God finally gave me 5 kids after turning 30 which I am greatful for. During those years of waiting I worked really hard, made good money, and went out alot. I felt I didn't need to go to school since I had a good job that was beneficial to me long term. Around 4 years ago I retired from that job at the age of 36. Right now I am attending college to become a Paralegal assistant. I think I can say I am trying to live my life while making others happy. Overall my kids come first in whatever I do.

This is somewhat exactly the definition I gave to the word "life".

I don't want to use the word "confusion"
Though it is one of the big part of the puzzle.

In answer to your question.
I would like to add that .. To full fill your dreams you have to dream first.
To walk you need to find the ground first.

I have kind of similar dreams than yours
(except that cooking thing)

At least you have enough strength to do what you don't like to do or you don't enjoy doing. I tried to do the same thing but it didn't work out that well.
Yes you can call that .."I am just whining and not really trying"
But this way or that way it is just not happening.
I am happy that I am still trying at least to get somewhere in my life.
And lets hope that I get what I want and what probably is best for me as well.
I don't care what others think..
I will do it until and unless I feel its right.
At least, at last I'll be the one whom I can blame in future for every thing.

For you I will say that .. just don't worry ..
To be happy its never too late.
And live your each moment fully!!

There are times when I think I am what I dreamed of. I am a strong woman with a lot of ambitions and dreams. I am not where I wanted to be, but I see myself getting closer to my goals each day. I am a writer which is what I dreamt of being when I was younger, back then I didn't realize how hard it really was and I am dating an artist so I am happy with the way my life turned out.

I dream of my teeth is all gone. And as per Filipino sayings, somebody from your loveones will died and that i dont wanna happen (I guess every people in the world doesnt want that to happen).

For me, dream is the reflection of what is happening for past or few days days before you dreamed of something. When you are deeply thinking on something it will be apparently absorbed to your subconscious that cause you to dream when you sleep. It has a connection from your past thoughts.

Unfortunately, I am a product of of what people around me have made me. I feel like a ball in a pinball machine being flung around by everyone flapping me this way and that. I don't think I am scared of being what I dreamed of, but rather I can not honestly say I know exactly what it is that I wish to do. Everything that I think I dream of seems to fall flat. I am an artist but I don't have any energy, which makes me think that either I am not a very good artist or I have not really found my calling. I actually don't mind washing windows that are on the ground level, but I am not actually very good at it. There is always lint, or there are streaks left behind.