I 'm not good enough...

nice advice from now on I would try to be better in life alone ...sometimes its hard to let go if one wishes to stay...just hard.

If the girl belong to you in fate, she always do not leave you, even if faraway from you. Believe lucky, though we can't confirm whether exist or not.

i understand the feeling,easy to go but wishes still there.just have a try.

Easier done than said

I do have my answer on what she want but I want the opposite... how can one let go if one wishes to stay but the other one want to go. All I could do is respect her decisions now. I did tried to reason out things but if she cant hear me out just listen to her heart and everything said and done theres nothing else to do right.

Well for now the thing that I do is just keep myself silent for a while and let her think whatever she want to think. I never want to end the relationship and never in my dreams to surrender. If I talk now everything would end. I know I have to face her one of this time or maybe later but not yet I have to compose myself first and try to think of a logical way to talk to her.Cant help it, it's just the way I feel....

I cant not just yet I have to try to keep quite now and I dont care whatever she says if I dont answer to her right now as long as it would somehow save the relationship even for a day. I cant i am not ready to let go and will never be ready. Maybe this is just a natural reaction of a rejection...

Well all I could say for now is sometimes life is cruel or is it just me that is cruel with life that it didnt give me the only person and the only thing that I ever wanted. I know that theres someone for everyone, but I only want her and no one else.... I have been through a lot this is my second love and the greatest love I ever experienced but still cant have her. Thats why because of this I said I am never good enough or is it just my bad luck with love .....

What I did for now is to keep silent and give her space. I didnt continue our conversation and just try to be silent for a while. I guess she needs space. I cant and I am not ready to let go and will never will just let it pass for now. I know what you mean about that I am never like this just the initial reaction of rejection my friend and I hope to be back to normal soon.

4paws is right Helscream. You can not make someone love you. Let her go. Be careful not to fall into another relationship too fast though. There is nothing wrong at all for being by yourself. As a matter of fact I love being by myself.

I have been by myself before after my first break up with my first love and it took me 9 long years to finally find this person to love again and looks to me that still I have no luck on this one. I am the type of guy who is in no rush to fall again it took me that long to love again and know how to love again. So I thought it would be easier for by now because of my past experience but it looks like its getting harder.

hello my friend seems to me you almost know my story as of now. Hope I didnt make you cry again. Looks to me it's been days I am having this problem. Well everything will change for the better soon. And yes you are right I wont be like this but all this is just an initial reaction to be rejected the second time around first with her mom now the only person that I ever love whats the worst thing that could ever happened is about to happen. No, I wont let them take the best part of me..I have to hold on and if holding on means I have to give her space and a silence then that is what I have to do..... I understood you perfectly in everything you say, and yes you make a great sense of it all....if I have to get all the light so there wont be space for darkness I will......

hello...

yes, somehow i'm learning more and more about your story... and no, i didn't cry this time coz i believe the battle has not been lost... merely a delay in outcome.

i do hope someone else could make you feel better or something could. and yes, for your sanity's sake, don't ever let anyone take the best part of you.

i guess, the offer i made before still stand. no time limit to midnight this time.:)

I told you already You should have made your over lifetime lol at least you make me laugh my friend. And yeah I can still remember your offer thats how I remember you glad to know its still open. Now was just wondering is it only for me or is it for all just trying to make things a little bit different in a way have to take my mind away from it all. Or else I wont be able to sleep and eat now.

yes, don't take me too seriously... hahaha just trying to lighten up things.:)

my friend, never take out the pleasure of eating and sleeping. aside from taking a bath, those two are the ones giving me my daily doze of basic pleasures in life.:)

as for the offer, you can check my posts elsewhere if ever i made the same one to another mylotter. hahaha

wahahahaha it would take me ages to look for all your comments and excluding your post that you comment since your number reached that high already waaaaaaaaaa by the moment I finished reading all that i would be 10 years older waaaaaaaaaaaaa ok ok I will have to eat now then rest later then take a bath just want to stay a while here at mylot and talk to friends like you. ok I believe you that offer is just for me I am more than honored my friend but for now lets just talk here at mylot want to be in a crowded room first so I wont fell so lost and at least I would feel human.

hahaha i can't imagine myself reading senior mylotters' posts of 17000 and 18000... and mine is only 1331. you'll be using your senior citizen's card by then.

anyways, eat, sleep, relax, take that bath... they offer great wonders for better disposition.

ok I have done eating next is the bath and later tonight I will sleep. see I am a good boy after all I know how to follow advices hahahaha waaaaaaaa never mind all thos discussions from the past by the time i am done reading then I would know you inside and out. lolBy the way how your weather there here its raining looks to me the weather is just the same as my mood.lol

hehehe good boy!!!

just remember that there's always sunshine after the rain...

let the rain pour for now so it will not pour again then i could enjoy the sun all day long. hey look what you mad me do. waaaaaaaaaaaaa your making me a mellow dramatic fooljust kidding about that fool. well it does feel great hearing this from you my friend. you make it sound that I am your pet dog by saying good boy hahaha what am i babbling I think I am not making any sense now. hope you dont mind this feeling has taken all my sense of reasoning .... now I am dumb lol

oh sori if you feel like a ... pet? but just curious... did you feel the pat around the head? hahaha

better to be a mellow dramatic than overly dramatic. hehehe

i think you'll pull thru. not making sense while making a lot of funny smileys are a sure sign of....
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you're gonna be ok!

That explain why I feel someone patting my head lol.
well to be honest I fell a little ok now talking to you and other members here at mylot but sometimes I need to smile for me not to feel the pain that much I know someday I will be ok but for now making myself busy would somehow make me forget a while what I am feeling,,,, even for a while

that "someday" will come sooner than "you think yesterday won't be over". i should know. i've had my share of pains and hurts that i won't wish it on anybody else. but this is life. not always sunny. but always do smiles... makes it all better somehow.

Very true my friend, whats important is that I love but sometimes I forget this in moments like this a feeling of rejection could sometimes initiate this kind of feeling .....but I wont stay like this forever...just being human and feel like human do...hopefully everything would turn out right for me in the future.

thats makes the two of us. Just curious though how do you hold on if the other one wishes to let go? Would it right to hold on even if your partner would rather end your relationship.....

Just an initial reaction of rejection my friend I know its bad to feel and think this way but I cant prevent to feel the way I feel just as of now. In time I would be back to normal. And no I think I cant let go of her on my own I have to let her decide for us coz she already know I can never let go of what we have. Yeah that too I believe that there is no such thing as perfect relationship....perfect love is just a fragment of our wild imaginations . Pain and sacrifice and heartaches are the things we usually get in having a relationship. It would all depend on you and your partner how you face all this.