Diabetes Burnout....Is Anyone Struggling with Depression Related to Diabetes?  

I was diagnosed several years ago, and have had periods when I was doing well.

At the moment I just seem to be angry all the time, feel alone with it because I seem to have a lot of people telling me what I 'should' do (like those friends who think its only to do with eating chocolate, and don't know potatoes have carbs, you know the ones....they mean well) but no one who truly cares how I feel. (Oh that sounds so self pitying and pathetic but I guess anyone who has been through these times will get it...lol)

I think part of it for me is that I sort of feel like I have used up all my 'overcoming' energy. I spent my teen years, from 12, dealing with a diagnoses of arthritis, and I never let that stop me, and when I was diagnosed with diabetes I had just come out of treatment for an eating disorder. I was doing well, I was no longer obsessed with eating or not - then suddenly I have to be aware of everything that passes my lips.

I sort of feel like I did so much fighting for so long, that with the diabetes its kind of like 'I can't do this again'. I'm tired. I came out of treatment, got diabetes, got married and moved from England to America fairly close together. It was 5 years ago but I feel like I've never quite caught up with myself, and I am struggling with the health aspect along with homesickness, marriage and a new health system to me where I can't afford to even pay for prescriptions or appointments sometimes, even though I have insurance. I was laid off from my job in February. (My insurance luckily is through my husbands work)

I know everyone with diabetes has their own set of other circumstances and trials, and I know that all of us at some point have thought 'I cannot do this for another day/I cannot stick another needle in myslef/just pass me the flippin' chocolate and no one will get hurt' so I would welcome any posts about how you deal with this, what helps you and what doesn't, etc.

I have joined the Y and started swimming every day and I am finding that helps lower the b/sugar, and lift depression a bit.

Thanks!