I am slowly cracking  

Sadly yes I feel this way quote often. One way I get thru it is to rely on my faith and try to remain positive although it is very difficult to do sometimes. Don't worry if it doesn't work out with one partner there will always be another out there. Every new beginning comes from some other beginnings end. Do you have a friend or family member you can confide in? I always feel better when I talk about my issues. Try to hang in there.

I know how you feel. That is where I was about 6 months ago. I was getting the run around from my significant other and thought he was just playing me. He moved out of the place we rented together. My salary was just barely getting me by. I was doing so much extra work at my job because others pretended they couldn't. I was not getting rewarded for the extra work I was doing. On top of it all, my best friends and I were moving into different mental mind frames. So one night, I sat down and cried all of my frustration out. The next morning I woke up and decided everything was going to be okay. I made my mind believe that my boyfriend moved out because he didn't deserve me, my extra effort at work was going to get me a raise (or something) and started making new friends who understood me better.

Keep your head up. Sometimes life gets easier when we learn to let go.

..Hi.. I have been in that situation too and I do understand that feeling.. For me, I even get depressed because I can't think of anything positive.. However, I came across with the movie, The Secret and this gives me a break.. the movie is really good and it encourages you to go on.. It became an inspiration to me and boost my confidence that everything will be alright.. If you can't have a copy of that movie, you can download the e-book of The Law of Attraction.. this is really very good.. It could help.. It will teach you something.. Believe me, after watching this you will be happy.. Anyhow, I think you need to breath.. Go somewhere where you could breath.. I mean, go to a place where you only think of yourself and enjoy being alone.. this way, you can be able to release the negative things and feelings you've been holding.. You will find that after doing this, you will gain more courage and clear your mind so that you can think very carefully and not make mistakes again..

I felt the same way not too long ago. Everything I tried to do to get my house fixed from Katrina kept coming apart at the seams, from contractors doing shoddy overpriced work to volunteer groups running out of money, being sick and unable to work and having no income, FEMA telling me I had to move out of the camper (therefore away from my property) while the mortgage company was telling me I couldn't leave or they would take my house and trying to handle all of it alone. It was all piling up fast. And after almost 4 years of just constant stress, I was ready to snap.

What saved me is the same thing raynejasper suggested....find what you can about the Law of Attraction and use it. Within a short time, everything in my life turned around. I'm now on disability, FEMA backed off kicking me out of the camper, the mortgage company is modifying my loan, I have a little more medical care and I should be back in my home by spring.

Don't let that positive attitude leave you, no matter what. You never know what's around the corner that you might lose out on if you are in a negative mind set. Try some full body relaxation and then picture your life exactly how you want it to be, like imagine living out parts of your day the way you want it....like watching a movie. Your positive attitude will pull solutions toward you. Try and see if any of this helps you as it did me. ;)

Zenstrive, I'm sorry you're feeling this way right now. But, believe me when I say, it's only temporary. My motto in life is this: "The only constants in life are God and change". Meaning, that nothing ever stays the same, except God and change. Change can be for good or bad, but seldom does either last forever.
I've lived quite a few years more than you, and I know in my heart this is true. If you don't believe in God, then believe in yourself. Living for others only, is a mistake. If you don't love yourself, respect yourself, be your own best friend--then you will always feel alone and needy of others.

You need to get out, have some fun, maybe get in touch with some people you haven't seen in awhile. Listen to some music that you love and talk on the phone with some friends, maybe. Life can seem very dull and full of responsibility at times, but it doesn't have to be all the time. Only you can make it better for yourself and change the circumstances. I wish you well and maybe by this time net week, things will feel much better to you. Take life one day at a time.

zenstrive let me tell you what a physical therapist told me
when I did not think i could walk another foot with my quad cane, he said to me, you can always do more than you think you can. and that stuck with me when my son was laid off , when we were evicted, when we became homeless, I knew there had to be help,but of course it was not just what I would have wanted, it broke up our little family, my self and my adult son, but he had to put me here in Gold crest a retirement center, I am 83 and handicapped, and he got put in a gov.sponsored apt with three other men, all of whom are out of wo rk, so they had a place to live. not what we wanted, but we are surviving. we can always do more than we think we can. You have to make yourself know you can survive, you can do whatever you have to do to get through this, and you will then find the help you need,I have felt just like you feel now,and I wept most of the first week i was here but i did survive and someday my son will get work and we will be together again. I am smiling now, and if I had any extra money I would send some to you really.

It's not nice when you feel like that, it shows you have too many things boogling your mind. You need to stop and evaluate thing s before they get out of hand. Hand you job issues first as that's your bread and butter. Sort things out with the boyfriend after, the housework is always going to be there so take you time and make a schedule so you don't feel overwhelmed. You need sometime to relax, maybe a mini vacation on a weekend.

your are not cracking, its a period of bad luck, BE PATIENT...it will be all normal again, i say it for real....We all have time with bad luck whan we all think that will be cracked, but when this time is over, and again is all fine and normal, then we laughing about that...I say it to you: be patient and strong, and all will fix itself

Its difficult to remain calm when there are so many stress triggers around us, Work,Friend,Family, Ourselfs.. Alot of people are unhappy with the way there life is going but finds it difficult to change it. Its like being the Happiest person at work and then your boss comes in and ruins it for ya.. Weve all been there we cant try to please everyone only ourselfs. if were not happy then nothing around us is going to work or feel right.

Let's see, not happy with my job, not happy with my marriage, autistic child, health problems...

Yeah I have bad days. But I have somehow managed to find a way to be happy "over here" even though things are rotten "over there". It takes practice but it's a great coping mechanism if you can manage it.

You just try and focus on things that make you happy when you have the time to do so. You get out in nature. You listen to music. You find an activity that you enjoy. It helps. It really does.

Maybe she's not the right girl. I'm sure you will find somebody who is right in time.