I feel like Sisyphus

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If you're not familiar with Greek mythology, you can look it up here: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sisyphus Well some of this is my fault for how I am and how I've chosen to deal with things, and some of it is due to what (and whom) I'm up against. So I chose to do this divorce on my own. And I decided that I would get a settlement agreement to send in with my paperwork, thus avoiding having to appear in court, as well as arguments about who is responsible for what, etc. And I chose not to use a lawyer because I'd rather use the $5,000 + for myself and my kids. The problem is that I'm dealing with a person who: 1. doesn't want a divorce 2. doesn't believe it's happening 3. believes I'm going to "come around" 4. and isn't always capable of being reasonable about it Just to give you the history on the settlement agreement, he got a copy of it last June. In August I bugged him about it and we had a discussion, but he never got anything back to me. In November, I bugged him about it and he got pissy about the section related to college expenses, but we eventually agreed on some verbiage. In early December, he told me he had no further changes and that he would sign it. Before Christmas again he said he'd sign it. Third week in January he said he'd get it to me on the anniversary of when he proposed (drama queen lol). So when that date came and went, no signature, I reminded him again. Last night he corners me, and wants to know why I'm "rushing" this. Yep, you heard me right. Rushing. After what, almost 8 months, I'm rushing. And then proceeded to go into a speech about how this is all about me being a control freak. Now yeah, I admit I have control freakish tendencies about certain things, but I think I've been more than patient here. And then proceeds to give me a bunch of examples from the last 30 years demonstrating that I'm a control freak. Lousy examples, but never mind. And then tries to rehash our entire last three years of counseling, as if talking it over yet again was going to change anything. Wanted to know what he had done wrong, so I offered to provide him a list. And then informs me that he has decided, in light of Dearra's anxiety problems, and the fact that I apparently don't care that a divorce will hurt her, that he does have additional concerns about the agreement after all. Crud. All I think about is how this is going to hurt the children. (insert grr face here) Can you say guilt trip? Doesn't he GET that this uncertainty is hurting the children? And that we need to make the split and get on with our lives? (nope, he doesn't) He mentions that the agreement has been sitting under my pillow for a week, ready for me to bring up the discussion. Um, the pillow that I don't use, on the bed that I no longer sleep on. As opposed to just telling me that he wants to have a discussion... Can you say "delaying tactic?" By this time, I am, of course, not real happy with him, and it shows. So he says, "you're obviously too upset to have a conversation about the agreement now", and walks out. Delaying tactic again. So here I am again plotting out plan B and plan C in case I can't get a signature in a reasonable amount of time. Roll that old rock back up the hill...