Don't be anxious mylotting friends, or least don't be too anxious!

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Anxiety and fear, panic and worry all have their purposes in our lives. Just like pain, everything has it's place and reason for being. It's when the thing becomes over active and all encompassing that it becomes a problem. Just like a tree growing too close to a house, anxiety can cause more problems than it helps if it's allowed to grow all willy-nilly and out of control. Yes, that tree might shade the house, but the roots could also be damaging the foundation, the sap could be hurting the roof. Anxiety can steal moments, hours, days. You can't think straight, see straight, feel straight. It's hard to function. You have to fight past the emotions to do...well anything really. You have coping techniques, medicine, things that help...sometimes. Sometimes they don't, and those are the times that annoy me the most. You often feel as though you can't talk about it. Not to your spouse, because it's always there, it's always a problem, so it becomes that story you always tell about that one time, that you feel they have heard so many times they no longer want to listen. Maybe they even don't, maybe they do, but that's not the point. I used to have cycles of mess, but for long periods would be fine. I used to be able to manage months of fine. I know what broke the camels back, I know what made it worse. I like the direction my life took after that time, but still, that time itself broke me. You may be able to glue a broken vase back together, but the cracks are always there. It may not hold water at all, maybe it has a slow leak, maybe it does hold water but looks terrible. That's me. I am the vase that's glued back together and has a variable leak depending on the pressure and weight of the water and the flowers at the time of the leak. Still that leaky vase has it's uses, maybe it now makes a great water to drip water on a plant!