A Little Woebegone
@just4him (323168)
Green Bay, Wisconsin
November 11, 2015 3:16pm CST
I've been sitting here or going through my day wondering why I'm not all that happy and in fact a bit depressed.
I thought it might be because when I went out to take care of things that needed doing this morning, I was in Wal-Mart and saw the scandal sheets (tabloids) and their headlines and could only shake my head at what they're spewing this time.
But I realize that's not it at all.
No, today is the reason why I'm a bit depressed.
Forty-three years ago today I said 'I do' and intended it to be until death us do part, only it didn't last that long. I was divorced for 22 years. Had our marriage lasted as long as it should have, it would have almost made forty-three years. He died in July of lung cancer.
We were a couple of Navy enlisted personnel who thought it would be nice to spend the rest of our lives together, so we set up housekeeping on this date in 1972.
Now that's not the only reason I'm in this mood. My brother, also an X Marine, was born on November 12. Tomorrow he would have turned 61. Unfortunately he passed on Father's Day last year 2014.
The only bright spot for today is that my grandson, who stopped over this morning, turned 20 today.
Where there is death there is also life and I do thank God for my grandson, but the memories of another life and the people I shared it with are forever gone.
So it's not the scandal sheets, it's the memories that make up this day.
Thanks for reading.
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12 responses
@Jessicalynnt (50523)
• Centralia, Missouri
12 Nov 15
bittersweet day for you for sure. I had a bad day too but I think you had a much better reason for yours than I did mine
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@Hatley (163772)
• Garden Grove, California
12 Nov 15
@just4him I know but it does happen you will get better but the memo ries you want to keep too as that was your life just do not stress over them i know the pain the hurt even a lon ti me after the fact but stress can act ually mess up our hearts and ruin our own lives. remember the goiden hap py days thats what I do
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@celticeagle (189915)
• Boise, Idaho
12 Nov 15
It's time you spoiled yourself a little. Be sure to eat well and get your sleep. You don't want this to cascade into something worse. You obviously cared a lot about this guy. Relationships are tough and are even tougher to get over. We all have bad days where memories or something will spark some bad mood or bad feelings. It is normal.
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@41CombedaleRoad (5966)
• Greece
12 Nov 15
It would lift your spirits a little if you thought more about the good years that you shared, rather than the ones you have spent alone. If you can it would be good to take an outing somewhere and even with someone on days like this when you know you might be prone to a heavy spirit. You still have life to enjoy and a grandson who is here because of some of those moments that only you remember.
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@softbabe44 (5815)
• Vancouver, Washington
12 Nov 15
So sorry you had to go through this stuff you have some very important memories.
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@softbabe44 (5815)
• Vancouver, Washington
13 Nov 15
@just4him Sometimes we hang onto alot of things
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@just4him (323168)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
12 Nov 15
Yes I do, and I wouldn't give them up for anything.
@just4him (323168)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
12 Nov 15
I'm doing much better today than yesterday. There has been a lot of loss in my family over the past year with my mother passing just three weeks ago. Maybe all of it was ganging up on me at once, especially with yesterday's date being what would have been our wedding anniversary if things had turned out better than they did.
@Rollo1 (16676)
• Boston, Massachusetts
12 Nov 15
I think that it is the expectations and dreams dashed that make us feel that deep sadness that can't be fixed, because we cannot change the past. But that's why we have to leave the past in the past. We were who we were, and others were who they were. It may not have been possible to make it turn out better. As The Man tells me "What's done is dung". Look forward, not behind. I am sorry you are feeling this sadness today, but remember that God still has great things in store for you, and you are blessed.
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@just4him (323168)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
12 Nov 15
Yes, I am blessed. Thank you for the encouragement.
@everloving (439)
• Chennai, India
13 Nov 15
My Granpa just passed away 3 weeks back. Our life gives us a moments of up & down. Once we lost our grandpa, we always felt that his blessings will always adorn us & make our lives even better. I wish if your hubby had given up smoking he must have been able to chew some more year & feel sorry for that. God always opens up another door if he shuts one. You are now seeing your hubby in your grandson & it would definitely widen your smiles.
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@just4him (323168)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
13 Nov 15
I am sorry for your loss. My mother also passed three weeks ago. It's been a tough few weeks for both of us.
@Marilynda1225 (91129)
• United States
12 Nov 15
tomorrow is bittersweet for me (the 13th). It was 50 yrs ago I was married and it's hard to think back that many years when walking down the aisle into what I thought was a bright future. Sadly, our marriage only 15 yrs but I do have 4 wonderful children which are my bright lights. There always seems to be something good out of something bad
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@just4him (323168)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
13 Nov 15
Yes there is. I'm sorry your marriage ended unhappily as well.
@Missmwngi (12915)
• Nairobi, Kenya
12 Nov 15
Sorry about your husband and your brother,may their souls rest in peace
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@Missmwngi (12915)
• Nairobi, Kenya
13 Nov 15
@just4him Oooh my sorry for your mum as well and may her soul rest in peace
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@just4him (323168)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
13 Nov 15
@Missmwngi Thank you. It's been a rough year.
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@just4him (323168)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
12 Nov 15
I do thank the Lord for my grandchildren. They have been a source of pleasure through the years.
@dorianna (509)
• United States
12 Nov 15
As I am aging, I am beginning to lose persons who held a special place in my heart. It is a sad thing to lose our parents and close friends. It is easy to leave the sadness permeate our outlook. I force myself to remember different experiences, love and laughter shared. Sometimes I will remember something silly we did together, occasions where laughter was prevalent and find myself laughing out loud. It is impossible to stay depressed when I laugh again almost like I am reliving the memory and I feel their spirit with me.
