Two Daughters in One

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It's like living with a person with a double personality. My daugther is bi-polar and she has been going through a manic phase the last few days. I wrote it about in several recent posts. For those of you that don't know about bi-polar disorder it is when a person experiences extreme moods. Because of medication my daughter is usually pretty level and just lives in a depressed mood most of the time. The manic phase doesn't happen very often. Maybe three or four times a year. Thank goodness. So, looking back over the years I have experienced my daughter's mood changes I have noticed how extreme her personality change is during this time. It is as if I am living with two very different people. A week or more ago it was as if my daughter and I were attached at the hip. She would get my grandson off to school and then she would join me in my room and be there most of the day. It had been that way for several weeks. She was also so easy to talk to and discuss things with. She let me know if she was going for a walk or planning to go somewhere. I am up in my room all day so I really appreciate this. And, everything is done on a certain schedule we have set down over the years so I always know what to expect and that helps my anxiety level so much. Now she is just the opposite. Is downstairs doing something all day. She doesn't answer when I call to her. She takes off and is gone on long walks for hours. which is fine but she used to let me know. So different. And, she makes me feel so shut out of everything. Like whatever is going on is a big secret. More like she is a teenager all over again. And, oh boy! was that fun. It is so weird to see this change take place. One day she is quiet and easy going. The next she is loud, confrontational, narcissistic, and irresponsible. Blowing money like crazy, up until all hours, moody, rude and mean to me, and an all round different person. Note** Yes, she is on meds and yes, she is much better than she used to be. Ever live through something like this?