I'm Seeing A Light In My Tunnel
By celticeagle
@celticeagle (189917)
Boise, Idaho
March 5, 2017 8:15pm CST
Yes, the ole light in the tunnel is building up power. I can see the light brightening. I have felt good the last few days. Usually it is normal that I wake up and feel nauseated and yucky for the first hour or so. I even toss back and forth whether I should just lay back down and sleep away some more of the day. When I am really depressed I don't even go online right away which is my regular thing to do. That and turn the TV on for some noise in my world.
It sure feels good to feel spring coming on. I feel some excitement and I am hopeful to get to feeling well enough to get on my mountain bike at some point and go riding on the greenbelt. I sure have missed that.
For those of you that don't know-- I was diagnosed with severe depression with panic attacks in 2006. I took a early retirement soon after and soon after that got on SSDI. I have had some form of depression most of my life. It also have S.A.D. so the winters are doubly bleak for me.
I hope this feeling lasts.
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@ScribbledAdNauseum (104615)
• United States
6 Mar 17
The fall and winter seasons are usually the worse for me as well. I think the worst part happens in the late part of November and early December. I am glad you are starting to feel better. I hope that Spring comes soon to all of us. It would do us all a world of good to be outside more.
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@ScribbledAdNauseum (104615)
• United States
6 Mar 17
@celticeagle I certainly hope so!
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@AbbyGreenhill (45490)
• United States
6 Mar 17
Mountain Bike I have a hard enough time worrying about fallint walking !!! Glad you are feeling better...I seem to be on the road to recovery also but i'm not pushing it.
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@celticeagle (189917)
• Boise, Idaho
6 Mar 17
I have the attitude that I am retired and I can eat and drink what I like. I will die regardless. I enjoy eating and so I am doing so.
@celticeagle (189917)
• Boise, Idaho
6 Mar 17
@AbbyGreenhill ......For me it has been for the last eight.
@AbbyGreenhill (45490)
• United States
6 Mar 17
@celticeagle I agree and live that way the last 17, yrs
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@MarshaMusselman (38865)
• Midland, Michigan
7 Mar 17
I know you mean the feeling that spring is in the air and you can ride your bike eventually, which is a great feeling by comparison. Lol, you follow that small comment/sentence after talking about things being bleak. I had to look twice and then remember what was said before.
I hope things look up for you. I've had mild depression too, but not where it's dibilitating. I'm getting up earlier than normal lately. Tonight I'm hoping for a great night's sleep on the couch and if that happens maybe no nap tomorrow which would be great.
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@celticeagle (189917)
• Boise, Idaho
7 Mar 17
I have severe depression and have had issues with it all my life. Hope you get a good nights sleep. That is so important.
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@sallypup (69190)
• Centralia, Washington
6 Mar 17
I realize that you are not old. I also know that I can't stand my corner of the world's senior center and yet I wonder if getting out with others for even a half hour a week wouldn't do you good? And here I sit preferring my little acreage to people. I'm not much help to you and I'm sorry for that.
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@celticeagle (189917)
• Boise, Idaho
6 Mar 17
@sallypup ......I have really bad teeth and it would mortifying for me to be in front of a group. Good that it was a positive experience for you.
@sallypup (69190)
• Centralia, Washington
6 Mar 17
@celticeagle My Dad smoked and hacked his way to 68. Your thoughtful comment reminds me of my days in Overeaters Anonymous- wow I was mortified to be there and deeply horrified at the very idea of sharing me. Folks sat there and did their thing, sharing and loving. One day I bust out with ME. And not a soul said one negative thing. I cried at almost every meeting after that for about a month. It hurts to rip a band aide off a wound or wounds but sometimes you just got to get that infection out before a person loses a limb.
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@celticeagle (189917)
• Boise, Idaho
6 Mar 17
Thank you. That would be wonderful.
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@GardenGerty (169489)
• United States
6 Mar 17
Oh good, the slight turning towards spring does always feel good, to all of us, but I know it is helpful for you and others who are depressed and weather affected.
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@Jessicalynnt (50523)
• Centralia, Missouri
7 Mar 17
I am glad it's getting a bit better!
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@YuleimaVzla (1857)
• Maracaibo, Venezuela
6 Mar 17
For depression there is no better cure than to escape the routine find new things and new people to frequent ... come on! you can!
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