Today was a dangerous day for me.

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From 5 am when I went to try to sleep, until about 2 pm, I kept waking up. I would sleep for 5 minutes, sometimes up to 20 but I was awake soon after. That's dangerous in and of itself. However, I'd pop a cough drop in my mouth,, sure that I'd stay awake. My body was tired, but I didn't really feel tired. I don't know if that makes sense. It wasn't that my mind was completely active, but neither was my body tired either. In any case, I'd wake up and the cough drop would be in my mouth still. I'd look at the clock and not much time had passed. I kept telling myself not to go to sleep until the cough drop melted. I knew how dangerous it could be if I swallowed it. I wasn't waking up because I was coughing, so I must have woke up because I stopped breathing. I didn't actually get any sleep until around 1 or 2 pm when I finally fell asleep and stayed asleep until 5 or 6. I tell you, my brain was active. I can remember having really deep thoughts about things, but I never did grasp onto any of it. I was always surprised by how deep of a sleep I'd fall into but be awake only five minutes later. Our brains are wonderous things. I've read about how stress can have an impact on our brains, how lack of sleep can do the same. How it isn't healthy for us not to get plenty of sleep.