Feeling Blue
@BelleStarr (61047)
United States
September 27, 2020 7:27pm CST
I have been sad for the last two days, really sad. Last evening I was on the verge of tears most of the evening. I know I am sad because my friend Irene's mother is in her final days but it feels like more than that.
Saturday morning Jack made his first communion. It is a big event in the life of a young Catholic. His dad should have been there with us at church and of course, he wasn't. I'm not quite sure if that is why I am so sad or if it is just seasonal blues.
My best friend Kathy was also admitted to the hospital and had to spend the night there, she had some strange neurological symptoms and they weren't ur why. It seems it was likely a bad reaction to Sudafed.
I was very low energy today, I cooked our two meals and wrote a few articles but that was it for me. I didn't sleep well last night and I feel exhausted. I think I will make it an early night. Hopefully tomorrow I will wake up and feel fine. I have loads of housework to do and tutoring starts again!! I don't have time to be sad.
Picture is my friend kathy and me
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@kareng (54665)
• United States
28 Sep 20
@BelleStarr I hear you on that one. We are all tired of this virus. But as long as there are non-believers and idiots who don't care about protecting themselves, or their families it will continue to spread. It's very sad.
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@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
28 Sep 20
It does feel like that sometimes and now when they say it will be Nov 2022 til thing are normal I could scream.
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@Juliaacv (48420)
• Canada
28 Sep 20
I'm sorry that you are blue.
But I can totally understand feeling that way.
Jack receiving his First Holy Communion as he did would have torn at my heart too.
Today is a new day, and I hope that your blues begin to fade.
I'll say a prayer for Kathy and a recovery.
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@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
28 Sep 20
Thank you so much for the prayer. I had a good night's sleep and am feeling better today. I hope it is gone for good or at least for a while.
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@Juliaacv (48420)
• Canada
28 Sep 20
@BelleStarr Yesterday we had to go to my brother's house to pick up some boxes of things that were for me from my parents' home. My mother went into a home in early 2019 and some of these things she boxed up in advance and some my younger brothers did.
I feel out of sorts to say the least. One box contained her rings, many of which were just pieces of jewelry that she acquired over the years, but my Dad's original wedding band was 'tossed' into the mix, as were her wedding and engagement rings. Being casual with such pieces bothered me.
It also bothers me that she is still alive but without her wedding rings. I feel melancholy, these are just items, but she cherished her rings from my Dad, and they should remain on her finger until her time comes. I feel odd having them here.
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@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
28 Sep 20
@Juliaacv I have to say, I removed my mother's wedding band before going to the home as well, I don't trust them not to "get lost". But I understand finding your father's ring just tossed in being disturbing. I'm sending a hug, these things are so disturbing to have to deal with. And that is why the boxes from my mother are sitting in my living room after 7 years.
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@Tampa_girl7 (48929)
• United States
28 Sep 20
I hope that you can chase your blues away
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@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
28 Sep 20
I feel rested today and that has raised my mood. Thank you.
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@Tampa_girl7 (48929)
• United States
28 Sep 20
@BelleStarr I’m glad to hear that
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@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
28 Sep 20
Thank you, me too I don't like this feeling.
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@LindaOHio (156159)
• United States
28 Sep 20
I'm sorry you are having such challenges in your life. Sometimes a good night's sleep is enough to lift your mood. Hope you feel better. Hugs.
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@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
28 Sep 20
Thank you hugs back yes I had a good night's sleep and I feel very much better
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@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
28 Sep 20
Yes it is just not right that John wasn't there but I had a good night's sleep so I am feeling better today.
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@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
28 Sep 20
@LadyDuck I went to exercise and that got my endorphins pumping so that helped as well.
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@LadyDuck (458073)
• Switzerland
28 Sep 20
@BelleStarr I am glad that you are feeling better, take it easy today.
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@crazyhorseladycx (39515)
• United States
28 Sep 20
'tis a heavy load'n yer heart, hon. please take care 'f yerself. these lockdowns/quarantines/self-isolation/home schoolin'/mask wearin'/social distancin' months 've sure taken their toll.
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@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
28 Sep 20
They have and most of the time I am fine, this just all came on me at once and I am not the weepy lknd but that what I felt like doing, I had a good sleep and butt-kicking exercise and I am feeling a lot lighter.
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@RasmaSandra (73407)
• Daytona Beach, Florida
28 Sep 20
You two look wonderful in the photo. I know what you mean some mornings I wake up feeling like I want to cry and I have to shake it because there is no reason for me to have to cry. I hope you start feeling much better and your friend will be well again,
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@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
28 Sep 20
Thank you and the nest time I go to Florida we are going to make a date and have a meal together
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@garymarsh6 (23393)
• United Kingdom
29 Sep 20
I will give you the same advice. Don't be so hard on yourself the build up of all these things always seem worse when you are tired. I hope your early night recharges your batteries and you wake back to your usual positive self.
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@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
1 Oct 20
Thank you dear friend, a good night's sleep and lots of exercises have returned my normal sunnier mood, I hate feeling weepy like that.
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@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
28 Sep 20
I do and I did get a restful sleep and then my exercise at the Y, I am feeling much more like my normal self, Thank you for being such a sweetheart!!
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@Courtlynn (66921)
• United States
28 Sep 20
unfortunately sadness, depression, whichever it may be, doesn't care if you have time for it or not.. 
. Hope you are feeling better by morning though.
. Hope you are feeling better by morning though. 1 person likes this
@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
28 Sep 20
Thank you sweetheart, I know you understand this feeling all too well. I do feel better a good restful sleep and some strenuous exercise has my endorphins pumping.
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@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
1 Oct 20
I do feel a lot better once I got some good sleep and some exercise
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@thelme55 (76476)
• Germany
4 Oct 20
@BelleStarr I hope you are feeling better now. Have a nice Sunday.
@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
28 Sep 20
Thanks I can always use a hug and after a good night's sleep I am feeling less blue.
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@CarolDM (203454)
• Nashville, Tennessee
28 Sep 20
@BelleStarr I am glad you are better. I am always here to listen.
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@snowy22315 (169937)
• United States
29 Sep 20
You have a lot going on, and it may be the combination of things that has you down. Belive me I know the feeling. I hope things improve. fo you.
fo you.1 person likes this
@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
1 Oct 20
They have improved a combination of exercise and better sleep has improved my mood greatly.
@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
28 Sep 20
Thank you, me too, I am usually a happy sort.
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@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
28 Sep 20
Thank you I had a good night's sleep and feel much better.
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@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
2 Oct 20
Thank you I am feeling a lot better now that I have had some sleep
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@jefferson126 (3051)
• Shenzhen, China
29 Sep 20
sorry for your sadness,there is a saying that autumn is a blue season,maybe the season sadden you.anyway,hope you can cheer up soon,have a good sleep.
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