Good morning from the Resort!

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I'm a little bit behind here but I really don't want to stress about it. I need to learn that it's ok as I know I will get them all done. I am now at the Resort. I arrived yesterday. I have been here quite a handful of times over many years. I love it. It's surrounded by nature and I love that. The Resort has upgraded the rooms by adding a coffee machine. And now TVs that have Netflix. I don't drink coffee but I find it a nice touch! Netflix I do use but I haven't watched anything yet. When I originally booked the room, I asked for a balcony and a bath. Love my baths! But when given the key and gone to my room I noticed neither of those things. My dad kept encouraging me to ring reception to ask if I could swap. I was extremely hesitant as I am not good with that sort of thing. I didn't want to seem like a bother. But dad convinced me as he knows I needed to get away and might as well get what I was hoping for. So I rang. Major social anxiety but I did it. The lady was SO kind! When we went to the reception area, she was so apologetic and even upgraded my room to a lakeview room with the balcony and bath but for the same price as the room I originally asked for. I thanked her so many times and she thanked me many times for ringing her straight away rather than using anything in the room and messing it. After dad left, I unpacked everything. Which I have never done. I've always lived out my bags but I wanted to do this right this time. Organisation means no stress. Then not long after that I opened YouTube to listen to soft jazz and I fell asleep. Due to these pains in my neck, back and sometimes head, I haven't been sleeping great. Though, even without all that, I'm not the best sleeper. I love my dad and brother but sometimes it's hard to relax at home. To sum it up, I just need alone time and I don't get it often. I also don't sleep great due to over worrying, stress, depression, nightmares....It's hard to relax. It upsets me when people say "Why are you so tired, you don't have a job!" Sorry but that's ignorant. I'm working on fixing that! But you can be exhausted from other things besides just working. I had some hours sleep and it did wonders! Mentally, in my heart, in my stomach, I feel calm! And that alone just makes me want to cry! I already knew this but actually being alone and getting rest made me realise how much I ACTUALLY needed it! I missed dinner though. I did set my alarm but was too tired. So around 2 - 3am I ate snacks I brought. Around 7am I will go down for breakfast. Thank you for reading. After breakfast I will most likely go to the pool and read. I wonder if my laptop will work down there. Like with Wi-Fi because it would be amazing to MyLot down there! For now I will do a little bit of MyLotting, then go down for breakfast because I am so hungry! ****photo is of the view from my room this morning****