Major Catastrophe Today

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Well, I feel like an idiot. I didn't sleep last night. Not that I didn't try but we started trying to get my daughter to start sleeping in her room upstairs. She has been sleeping downstairs. She's been manic and just falls asleep down there. It's not good for her back to be just falling asleep in a chair. So in our family meeting on the 1st we decided that at a certain time in the evening my grandson would go down and get her and have her come upstairs to her room. So, he did so, and she came upstairs. But, instead of going to sleep she was in and out of her room all night. (That was from about 11:30p. until 6a.) In her room she'd go and close the noisy door. Ten minutes later she'd be opening the door and going downstairs. Then a few minutes later she'd be opening her door and going in. Back and forth ALL NIGHT LONG. OMG. I had a telehealth appointment with a counselor today at 1p. I had decided during my talk with my dr. the other day that I needed to address my feelings about dying, and the agoraphobia. (this was my first time with a new therapist.) See if I could get a handle on those two things. I kept resetting my phone alarm so I would be sure I wouldn't miss the appointment. (They want you to sign into the telehealth app 15 minutes early) Being so tired from not sleeping I guess I got confused on the time. At about 1:27p. I took a double take on the time. Oh, my no! The appointment was at 1p. not 2p.!! I called the office, apologized profusely, and was so embarrassed. I didn't reschedule. I broke down and cried. Had my daughter come up and I explained to her how I felt. She understood part of it but she is rather simple minded and doesn't see things very mindfully. She pretty much lives in her own world. My grandson was having a hard day himself, so I didn't want to disturb him. I really needed the therapist but, oh well. My daughter had some advice, but I am not a crafty type of person like she is so I wouldn't want to do any crafts. But she tried. I have had a really bad day. No sleep and my screw up. I feel so embarrassed and angry. I want to just bang my head against a wall. I wish my BFF was still alive and I could call her. What do you do when you are having a really bad day, need someone to talk to and have no one?