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I won't get in too deep about today's list of crazy stuff. I just can't, until I get it all fixed, sorted, or whatever it takes. My children lost their grandmother today. Yes, she was very old and had lived a long life. We all loved her so much. My children were very close to her, if at all possible, she never missed a ball game, a school concert, play, or event of any kind, an awards ceremony, nothing...she was there, and wouldn't have been any place else had she been given a choice. She was a phenomenal mother figure that set a great example for everyone--a kind, Christian lady who loved her family. The kids are upset of course, their Dad (my former husband) is very rattled, and Grandpa is crushed beyond measure. Can you even imagine being married almost 75 years? That's more years than some of us are even blessed with. They lived for each other, their children, and their grandchildren. All four of my children have been texting and calling each other, me, and their Dad for most of the day. Even though we all knew Grandma was very frail and her days were numbered, imagining life without her is very, very hard. Grandpa isn't at all well and is extremely frail, he won't be with us much long, either. There was another event today that I am simply too tired to even talk about, nor do I have the heart to at this time. Let's just say it's difficult and might be easier to deal with on another day. We all have bad times and bad days; it's part of life. It does seem hard to have a lot of bad things happen in one day, though. The hardest thing for right now is, Grandpa isn't well enough to go to a service, or to travel by any means of car, plane, whatever, from Florida to Illinois to have a service here like they originally planned to do. They have cemetery plots, etc. in Southern Illinois next to their parents and other family. No one feels they can have any type of service for Grandma without Grandpa there. He just can't ride in a car more than a few miles, and he for sure can't fly. They both chose cremation long ago, so their sons think they may just wait for now. Grandpa even suggested that, so it may be what they have to do. We know we all won't be here some day. We know we will lose people we love. But somehow, it's still very hard when those days come.