psychic insight, a gift or a curse?

@ESKARENA1 (18304)
May 27, 2007 4:57pm CST
Those of you who have followed my discussions will know that I am exploring a gift of insight that I have had from childhood and a gift that I have recently found is in great demand around where i live. It seems every evening i have people calling at my home asking for help. Now, i always help when i can and will continue to do so, but tonight i have had a problem. A woman came to my house that i did not know to speak to, although i had seen her around the village, she came with her husband but he sat outside in the car. Well, i tuned in and was given nothing. As i do on these occasions i told her that i had nothing for her. aT THIS POINT SHE LAUNCHED INTO A TIRADE OF ABUSE CALLING ME A CHEAT AND A LIER AND A wh!re I was wondering why people do things like this, it has hurt me deeply
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• United States
27 May 07
Hi, Im jessica and Im 15, a freshman in highschool and I know how you feel... i have had dreams that come true the next day. I had a dream that my father ended up in the hospital because of a heart attack, he was fine when i left for school. During 2nd period, i got a phoe call from the office stating that my father was in the hospital because of a heart attack. After everything cooled down, dad was healthy, things were great! I had a dream that night about a housefire, and this was an AWEFUL housefire... a dog was dying, and ppl were screaming! The next day, there were my friends in my living room with my father, they had a housefire... now my parents want me to see a psichiatrist....so I am now. I too wonder if it is a gift or a curse.
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@ESKARENA1 (18304)
27 May 07
oh my. Are we really sending people to psychiatrists because they display psychic ability? Isnt it strange, the more civilised we become, it is but a venere, in reality we are still groping in the dark. Hold on to your power and maybe you can use it to the good blessed be
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• Canada
28 May 07
Oh, to hear that someone is being sent to a psychiatrist because of their gift just blows me away. I guess that's one reason why I have mostly kept my gift to myself....for fear of being seen as "crazy". Now, I am very fortunate and I'll tell you why. I do see a theripist because of a very traumatic past and, come to find out, my theripist believes in my gift (she is a Christian who believes in "Chistian Mystics"). Through her, I have been given a lot of reading material which, so to speak, validates my gift. That makes me feel better because I really used to believe that I was going crazier with age. I would recommend finding yourself someone you can talk to who understands that your gift is REAL. That way, instead of perhaps "fixing" you, that person would instead try to help you handle the difficulties that come with such a powerful gift. Good luck to you and blessed be
@ESKARENA1 (18304)
28 May 07
this is excellent advice, at 15 i would certainly have needed guidence thats for sure thank you
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@brokentia (10396)
• United States
27 May 07
I am sorry that you were hurt by that woman. It is obvious that she is seeking an answer to a question that she desperately needs but is right in front of her face but she refuses to see. So, she was wanting you to tell her what the answer was. But the reason you were not given the answer is because she is supposed to come to terms with this answer on her own. We can lead people to the answer...but they do not have to accept it. While some can be lead to the answer or even the option of an answer, and that person will hold onto it like a life line. She is supposed to find her path. That was why you did not see. But she is so desperate...that is why she lashed out. I am sorry you had your feelings hurt in the process. But maybe you were supposed to face this as a learn experience also. Learn from it...do not let it stop you. Many blessings and stay strong.
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@ESKARENA1 (18304)
27 May 07
i know tommorow on cool reflection i will see it like you do. Right now i just want to close down and leave it all alone. You are right all these things are part of the learning experience and both myself and her learnt a lot tonight blessed be
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@arcadian (932)
• United States
28 May 07
Tia- I agree with you completely- I do readings on week end nights at a shop- and in the past year I have been told over and over how accurate i am- still, three different times I had to say I'm sorry- and return their money because they insisted I was way off base-yet I knew they were in denial, and once I could see nothing- and the woman was so-o-o-o angry - and it was as you say right in front of her, and she needed to accept it. You are so correct in this.
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@brokentia (10396)
• United States
28 May 07
I had been thinking of the saying, ha ha ha. But I didn't want to imply that the upset lady was a horse. LOL
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@susieq223 (3742)
• United States
27 May 07
I think I am blessed that I don't have "the gift" you have. One of the reasons is just what you wrote about. There are some people in this world that just want to take, never to give--and they take it personally when you don't or can't give (anything) to them. Another reason I'm glad I don't have psychic insight is that so often it seems to center on bad things. Having the troubles of the world come into my mind would be a lot to bear, I think. I have enough of my own to think about. I think you are brave to explore and use this gift, and very unselfish to use it for others. I haven't followed your other discussions, but I will read some of them, now.
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@ESKARENA1 (18304)
27 May 07
well thank you indeed. Most of the time its fine, its just who i am, but its the first time i have had such a negative reaction. I honestly feel she would have been happier if i had faked something for her thank you for your response blessed be
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@gabs8513 (48803)
• United Kingdom
27 May 07
I really do not know why People act that way I hate it when People act that way and to me they where not brought up with Manners or anything Do not worry about and if she ever comes to you again tell her where to go Big Hug to you
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@ESKARENA1 (18304)
27 May 07
oh in her mind im a complete fake and a user but no doubt ill feel better soon thank you my friend for your kind words blessed be
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@arcadian (932)
• United States
27 May 07
Her rage and fear are probably the thing that was blocking you from picking up anything from her. She did that yet she is unlikely to do it to the usual nimrods who people her life-to you who are so extrememly sensitive. (rolling my eyes to heaven.) I and I'm sure your other friends are sending you a warm fuxxy cloud of affectionate regard to snuggle into against the onslaught of that rabid dog of a woman.
@ESKARENA1 (18304)
27 May 07
thank you so much my friend, ive already started to pick up on the warmth and it is greatly appreciated blessed be
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@arcadian (932)
• United States
28 May 07
how did a fuzzy blankie become a fuxxy one-LOL
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@ESKARENA1 (18304)
28 May 07
well, it was lovely anyway, normal service is resumed now. lol blessed be
@mimpi1911 (25455)
• India
28 May 07
commoners, kind of, are so dependent of 'pshychic insight' that when they come to you they know for sure that you will going to have something constrctive or some advice that would please them. they are pretty ignorant about how and why this happens. but, we know, you cannot have it anytime and anyway. pls donot lose heart because they are ignorant and whatever abusive language she used is but out of utter rage and distress. pls forgive and try to forget. as long as you are sincere and honest nothing can demoralise you. God Bless.
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@ESKARENA1 (18304)
28 May 07
thankyou so much for your kind words of suport, i am feeling pretty drained right now but on cool reflection I will continue with my work blessed be
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@mimpi1911 (25455)
• India
28 May 07
i am sure you will be over it soon. good luck and cheers!!
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@derek_a (10903)
28 May 07
It takes all sorts to make a world Eskarena1, and I too have had this form of abuse hurled at me for no apparent reason. My zazen has shown me to focus on the hurt I have felt as a result, tune into it, like I would tune into a personality and let it show me more of my own reaction. From that point it tends to get worse before it gets better, but then suddenly there is an understanding of the situation that is beyond words. The "abuser" (for want of a better word) is living out his/her karma and he/she has found it near impossible for his/her feelings to remain suppressed. And then when I just stand back and give them space, I have helped them to have an experience without resistance. An experience that one day (maybe not even in this life) that will come back and teach them a valuable lesson. Look within and see if you have ever "lost it" in a way that you have later felt embarrassed or ashamed – you can learn a lot from this. I know that I have in one or two instances during my life. Here is one such conflict I had many years ago... Doesn’t that last phrase make me sound old! LOL Once when I was 17 and had just past my driving test. I hooted my horn at this man who was parked in the middle of the road and apparently not going anywhere. I had meant to let him know that I was coming past him - quite reasonable I thought. A mile or so down the road, this car roared past me and cut me up forcing to stop. This huge bloke got out and I wound the window down. He completely lost it and caught hold of me by my collar and screamed into my face. Then drove off. I was left shaking and stunned by this. For years then I churned this over in my mind and really hated him and in my imagination I would wait for him and attack him, getting my revenge. Every time I thought of it, I would feel these awful negative feelings. Then, when I first started meditating, it came up and I had this tremendous headache as I thought of it - all my neck and shoulders contorted with pain. I just observed this without interfering, and then it just vanished and I thought, "so what?" It had plagued me subconsciously throughout my late teens and early twenties and now, in an instance, it had disappeared. What that taught me that it’s all inside ourselves, regardless of what others may do in this world.
@ESKARENA1 (18304)
28 May 07
on cool reflection, almost 12 hours later now, i see the truth in what you are saying , she was obviously working something out for herself. Im calm now and will not give up doing what im doing but it rattled me at the time. Also, again with reflection, I have learnt not to be quite so open, maybe there really is a place for not being genuine? at least not all the time. I have only recently let others become aware of my gift, i guess im still learning the art of public relations blessed be
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@derek_a (10903)
28 May 07
When someone is not genuine, I see it as a defense mechanism. I think we need to go back to the "cause" of why we are here in the first place - to learn to transcend the illusion that we are separate. But that is not so easy because we are going to have the ego objecting strongly in the belief that we will lose our identity. The truth is, if only we could get to realise it, is that we actually gain our true identity. I get the feeling that that client of yours must have been very frightened and felt threatened and that you "knew" something terrible about her/what was going to happen to her. All down to inner insecurities that bring people to the like of you and I in the first place. Often then need to be in control and may have learned in childhood that the best way to control was to shout and scream. I'm pleased that you've moved on.
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• Canada
28 May 07
A lot of times, people don't realize that their fear and their anger can actually block the psychic from picking anything up. Of course then that person is going to launch into a tirade of abuse and call the psychic a cheat and a liar and so on, never realizing that their actions are at fault. I say don't worry about it. There are always going to be people like her out there, but the good work you do is far more important, and I'm sure many other people are able to testify that you're not a cheat or a liar. Keep up the good work, and hold your head high. People like this lady have issues, and aren't worth getting all hot and bothered about.
@ESKARENA1 (18304)
28 May 07
thankyou so much for your kind words. I have helped two people today after her tirade and found no problems at all. The issue really is hers, not mine blessed be
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@sukumar794 (5047)
• Thiruvananthapuram, India
28 May 07
A person I know for some time earlier ..but not to be seen around for quite a long time . One fine day I have a flash of that person in my inner self .. You just wouldn't believe this - the person I have pondered over happens to be met somehow , the next day . Is this psychic coincidence or something inexplicable ? Can you sort things out for me .
@ESKARENA1 (18304)
28 May 07
this could very well be an example of insight, but do you listen to these feelings, do you listen to them? or do you pretend they dont happen?
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• United States
28 May 07
I think such talents are both gifts and curses. Gifts in that you have something powerful that not many other people have, but a curse in that sometimes unrealistic things are expected of you. The instance you mentioned about the lady you don't even know coming to your house and abusing you when you didn't have anything to say is a good example of that. She obviously had heard somewhere that you had something (your psychic ability) that she needed, but expected more than what you gave. But that's her fault, not yours - after all, she didn't even give you anything to go by. That's ridiculous, Her calling you a fraud when she clearly didn't even give you a chance is completely ridiculous so please try not to feel to hurt. You're on the right track and doing the right thing; I can just feel it.
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@ESKARENA1 (18304)
28 May 07
i have had so much warmth from you all that a lot of my confusion and hurt is just fading away blessed be
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@valmiki9 (1171)
• India
28 May 07
Psychic insight is not some thing which a person summons at will.It is a flash triggered by either seeing aperson or onaccount of some earlier incidence in the past life. Many people do not understand this so some fraudulent persons take full advantage of this phenomenon.They would pretend to lapse intrance and keep murmuring things which can be half audible and half not.The listener is left to draw his own conclusions and the fraus collects enough money.Since you are a real psychic you cannot pretend . Ignore the ignorant.
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@ESKARENA1 (18304)
28 May 07
all you say is true, i could never fake it, im only just at the edge of understanding it, but will continue blessed be
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• United States
28 May 07
That person probably walked in already thinking you were a fraud, so when you had no message for her, she instantly thought she was proven right. All I can say is that woman is an idiot and you shouldn't let her words bother you too much.
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@ESKARENA1 (18304)
28 May 07
i feel better now but it has taken me a good sleep and 8 hours thank you for your response
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• United States
28 May 07
Don't be hurt by what was said. You have a gift and if she doesn't appreciate how it works, then she is the loser. Most people don't understand how it works. She would have probably thrown a fit if you had come up with something and it wasn't what she wanted to hear.
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• United States
28 May 07
I feel very sorry for you!! I have been told that people who act like that are not happy with there lives and they just want everyone else unhappy also. I work at a gas station believe me I have seen all kinds. I have been called everything you can think of and most of it is because of gas prices. They get upset and take it out on everyone else. I think if you have the gift that it is wonderful, I would like to go to a psychic but there are none around here where i live. I think it is great that you can see things and know things, dont let it get you down, I believe some people are just hateful no matter what happens to them I wouldnt take it personal.
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@zandi458 (27954)
• Malaysia
28 May 07
Not everybody is gifted with psychic power and you are one of the lucky one if not unlucky as this case here seems to be. Your client must be frustrated for not getting an answer to her problem from you. If other people continuosly seeking your help then this one incident is just one bad apple. Just keep her out of your memory and continue doing what you have been assigned to do.
@mama4kids (690)
• United States
28 May 07
i wouldnt let her bother you. at least you didnt lie and tell her something just because that is what she wanted to hear. so good for you!!! some people are just rude. dont let one person ruin it for you!!! take care!!
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@JessyBlue (536)
• United States
28 May 07
Ah thats really sad, that someone would say those things to you. She came looking for a reading, but when she didn't get what she wanted she turned on you?! wow that's so wrong. That would have hurt my feelings too, its like you were seen as a tool rather than as a real person. You do have a "GIFT" that's for sure, so it was given to you for a reason, some one must have thought...."how this person is open and responsible enough to handle such a gift". I think psychic insight is a gift, to be used to help others...but I'm sure it can at times feel like a curse when you get treated so badly.
@ESKARENA1 (18304)
28 May 07
thank you so much for your kind words of support. It certainly is a gift and something i will continue to use even in the face of such negativity. On long cool reflection, I see it is her who has the problem, not me blessed be
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@laridbz (1287)
• China
28 May 07
I don't really know much about psychic insights. I think only you are able to tell if it's a gift or a curse, even because it might be both. It all depends on the person who has it. But if it bothers you people like that, why do you let people know about your gift? If it's something that makes you upset, you could keep it to yourself. Or tell only really close people, something like that. I personally would be REALLY scared, I think. I'd hate to see things, like old ladies as you said before. It would scare the hell out of me, no kidding. I don't know if you fear it anyhow, or if it's only annoying people that hurts you, but I think the latter is better to resolve!
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@ESKARENA1 (18304)
28 May 07
i have only recently started talking about it and o0nly more recently started exploring it fully. Only a very few close friends knew but word gets around and peoplke come to me, not the other way round blessed be
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@lifeluver (743)
• Canada
28 May 07
It suprises me that she went off like that. You would think that she would realize that you're the real thing because, reality is, sometimes we really do get absolutely NOTHING. I suspect as derek_a pointed out that she knew something and wanted you to verify what she already knew. But, whatever it is, completely blocked her from you and therefore, you weren't able to see anything. I think derek_a was right to say that the problen is hers and not yours. I'm glad to have read that you're feeling better now and have been able to help two more people. Good for you for not letting that negitive event stop you from using your gift. Take care and blessed be
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@ESKARENA1 (18304)
28 May 07
as with so many people who have responded to this discussion, you have provided me with a great comfort and i thank you all blessed be
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@hotbiatch (276)
• Philippines
31 May 07
Everything comes with a consequence. It's just how life goes.. If you were given an extraordinary gift it comes for a reason and that is because you can take the responsibilities that go along with it. You just hold on and pray for strength and eventually things will turn out okay.
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