I've Been MIA For a Bit...

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Not feeling like doing much. I usually feel pretty depressed during the winter months. More than usual that is. I am depressed most of time having a diagnosis of extreme depression with panic attacks and am not one that medication helps. So, it's a fun bummer of a world I live in most of the time but then the following happened to add to it. I got a message on FB from someone I USED to call a friend. The one who accused me of stealing from her when I went to visit her one time back in 2010 I think it was. I have posted on here about it in the past. When this happens, which is rare, it dredges up the old feelings of hurt and anger. I mean she didn't just accuse me she threatened to send the Sherriff out to my home if her stuff wasn't returned in a certain amount of time. Of course I didn't steal anything. To me a friend would never steal. To me a good and moral person, which I strive to be, would not steal. I am not a thief. She never apologized for it either. We talked about it at length several times. She did one time say she was sorry but ended it with a 'but' and prefaced it by saying but she just wasn't sure I hadn't but if I didn't she apologized for accusing me. What kind of an apology is that? Here we had known each other for about 20 years at that point, and I've stayed with her several times in the past. And to just come out of nowhere with this was really weird. She had had several people over helping her before I had come since she was just moving in. People she didn't know from Adam. Yet I was the one she accused. So weird! See how much it still bothers me? It's like I told her don't contact me if you don't want to have this brought up again because I think about it every time she does. I don't like my character questioned. I don't steal and I don't like people, especially those who I THOUGHT, were my friends to accuse me of such things. It really hurts. So, anyway, I am feeling down in the dumps due to this. Her reason for messaging me was to tell me she finally was on the same page with me as far as Trump was concerned. (She's a staunch Republican.) That lady getting shot in the face was the final straw for her. Not all the other atrocities but this one did it for her. Thanks for reading my vent. I really needed to do it.