I Think That I've Got Both Sides Right Now

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I have always been shy and introverted. I remember in high school I was very shy. Got better when I had my daughter. I have severe social anxiety. I used to think there was something wrong with me. I used to think people saw me as broken or anti-social. But in doing research about depression and anxiety I have found that is not at all true. My brain merely works differently than others. I get stimulation from quiet reflection and deep thought. I don't need to go out and be around others to feel okay about my life. I enjoy my solitude. I have my daughter and grandson here too and that is enough. In fact, the last few days we've had a lot of maintenance people here and it really tires me out to have so many around. It depletes me. Staying home is where I prefer to be. I don't like crowds. People can be so rude and ugly at times. Having an internal world as I do, I feel actually enriches my life. I find all the research I do stimulating and my mind is at peace. Too much external stimulation is tiring, and I don't need to be around people all of the time to be happy or feel fulfilled. It's a good feeling. I wish I had realized it earlier in my life.