Apparently I am the reason they broke up (long)

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My ex-husband and I have been divorced for almost 7 years. We have stayed on very good terms (most of the time) and have been known to be, um, inappropriate off and on during that time. So many people don't understand why we still talk and are friendly but hey they don't have to. We do. He has always been there for me over 22 years including medical emergencies, my father's accident/passing, and my recent day spa adventures. I don't ask him questions about his personal life if there is a chance that the answer will hurt me. Still we've been doing this long enough that I have an idea of when he is seeing someone because he goes a little more under the radar and other things cease. He spent almost 12 hours in the hospital with me during my medical emergency in March. He helped me to find the day spa retreat where I spent 2 months. He drove me there. He emailed me almost every day and answered the phone when I called him almost every night. He picked me up at the end of the 2 months. He was (and always has been) my rock. He was even my emergency contact and received regular calls from the counselors updating them on my status. When he was helping me to pack he said to me "NJChicaa, I will help you as much as I can but please understand I have a personal life." I told him that I knew that and it had been obvious to me. I was just grateful to him for all of his help. Well when he brought me back and helped me carry my bags in I could see a certain look in his eyes. When he was leaving he hugged me for an extended period of time and said that he would like to, um, spend more time but that I needed to focus on myself. Not 2 days later he showed up at my door and he, well, spent more time. He has been in contact more regularly and I've seen him a couple of times. Last week I told him I needed to speak to him and in person. He showed up at my apartment but I was at the pool so he walked over there. I know he is not the type of person to cheat so I asked him what had changed over the 2 months that I was away. He initially didn't want to talk to me about it but I stood my ground and said that I didn't want the nitty gritty details but after over 2 decades I deserved an explanation. It was very perfunctory so later that day I texted him and said that I needed some more information. He showed up unexpected at my door later that afternoon. He said that "she" (whoever she is) was pissed off about him putting so much energy into supporting me. Then he dropped the bombshell--he told her that he loved me and always would and that the only reason we are divorced is due to my personal challenge. Well she saw him helping me so much with that and assumed that we would be getting back together. I don't know (or care) if it was a big fight or a civil discussion but apparently that was that for them. It certainly wasn't my mission or intention to have an impact on whatever they had going on. Am I sad about it? Nah. There are no plans or discussions about my ex and I getting back together. But there it is. My loyal and loving ex stuck by me and she couldn't handle that. That's a shame actually because it shows what a good guy he is. Is he seeing someone new? Doubt it if he's texting me at 3am on a Sunday morning and saying that the idea of me soaking in a bath is "hot".