Wanna see my smiling face?

United States
June 29, 2008 5:15pm CST
Ok, I've done it, finally. But only with Angelwhisper's invaluable help. I've posted 2 pictures of myself on my profile page. I've been sort of avoiding this since I started here, but I think it's time you saw who you've been talking to all these months. So I'm there. They were both taken a couple of months ago. And I want you to know, before you go and look at them, that I'm very nervous about posting them. As I told Angel, I've been so built up here on this site, I should look like Cleopatra or something, and I DON'T!!!!! I'm just me. As you will see. How about you? Does it make you nervous for someone to see you for the first time like this, after having talked to them for so long and getting your own picture in your head of what you think they look like? Does it make your stomach jump, like it does mine?
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• United States
30 Jun 08
In my case, I don't have a digital camera or a computer graphic pic of myself. I probably don't intend to do anything like that any time soon.
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• United States
30 Jun 08
I could lie & say that I have my real pic up, but ...
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• United States
30 Jun 08
lol, Krazy, if that's your real pic, then I DEFINITELY want to meet you! Whoa! If my eyes don't deceive me, that's Warf, yes? Love me some Warf...
• United States
30 Jun 08
Hi, KrazyKlingon, how wonderful to see you! I used my webcam to take those pics. It worked pretty well, I think. These webcams are so much fun! It certainly changes our communication - makes it so much better! But I'd love to see your pic. Shoot, I'd love to see everyone's! Slowly, but surely, I'm getting there. And I'm persistent too.
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@tessah (6617)
• United States
30 Jun 08
what maes me more nervous.. is when people give me their pics and want a comment on them. its all fine and good if the person is attractive.. i can come up with a plethora of decent compliments and the person is satisfied. what about when the person is genuinely hideous to look at? ya know.. like jaba the hut or something? no offense to those of you that bear a resemblance to the hut.. of course. but i have a very difficult time in finding something complementary when im put on the spot like that. then people get angry when i dont respond the way they wish for me to.. i cant lie worth a damn really, and people get very upset with me over this trait. but my friends know hat if their a55 looks horrible in them jeans.. i WILL tell them so rather than let them go out into public and be ridiculed. if someone asks me "do i look good?" and they really dont.. im not going to placate and pacify so their esteems are salvaged.. it isnt in me to do the way ive seen others do and fawn all over someone, and then talk smack behind their backs tearing them down. you already know i think yer adorable and love you oh so much.. and i wouldnt say that if it wasnt how i truly felt.. so relax.. yer beautiful, inside and out.
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• United States
30 Jun 08
Hi Tess. I wondered if you'd been here. And so you have. That's sort of what I came back to check. And I know what you mean, it's really hard to say a lie. I can do it, and I've done it and I'll do it again, but it's not exactly easy. The trick is to make it look easy! ;yeah right; I love you oh so much too. Thisssssssss much! Ok, I'm relaxing. Deep breaths, in through the nose, out through the mouth. Hey, you could do with some of that yourself, my love. Don't forget my pictures. Wednesday. Cuz you won't be able to wait till Thursday.
@tessah (6617)
• United States
30 Jun 08
;giggles; i wont forget
@tammyr (5946)
• Etowah, Tennessee
30 Jun 08
I actually found this from your page! SO I saw them before I saw this. When I went to leave a comment I found we are not friends ! GASP! So please accept my request!! You are a lovely person! Not what I would have guessed if I had to, but quite 'right' nonetheless!
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• United States
30 Jun 08
Oh, I DID accept it, as soon as I saw it there and I'm so glad you sent it! I thought we would have been friends already, but oh well, at least we are now. And thank you, thank you. Funny, it seems that everyone is picturing me with long dark hair. Is that what you were thinking? That's just so interesting!!! I'm going to have to think about that one. See you out there, especially now that I'll see your discussions on my page! Good! XX
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@lexus54 (3572)
• Singapore
30 Jun 08
Thanks for sharing your photo. Your courage to reveal yourself to us pictorially gets my admiration. You have a very warm and radiant smile, and that makes you come across as a friendly approachable person. Anyway, that's not surprising, since we can feel your presence like this even getting a glimpse of how you look in real life. Keep that smile up and reflect that in your interactions here, because it makes myLot a much warmer place.
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@lexus54 (3572)
• Singapore
30 Jun 08
Thanks Nova for what you've said. You have touched my heart too. I guess the feeling's reciprocal. When we smile and we come in here with a happy disposition, the sharing will be magical, and the joy will be spread all around...just a thought, but I've experienced this many times here.
• United States
30 Jun 08
Lexus, thank you so much. Wow, you touch my heart. Once again. I'm so glad you see me as approachable too, because that's how I am. That's what I wanted you all to see, the warmth and love that I feel for all of you. And don't worry, I don't see myself stopping my smiling anytime soon. Thank you, Lexus. You make Mylot a much warmer place too, you know. XX
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• United States
30 Jun 08
Well hello there. I don't think I'll get the guts to post a picture of myself yet. Maybe one of these days. But good job. I pictured you different. I don't know with longer dark hair or something. Yeah I know how you feel because like I said I don't have the guts to put my picture out there. You must have been nervous when you did that. But you finally did it and that's all behind you now.
• United States
30 Jun 08
Yeah your right. I might just do that when I find a way to. But thanks for all the nice things that really made me feel better about myself. I will have to do that. And thanks for the picture. We finally know who is that mysterious and gorgeous person that we are always speaking to.
• United States
30 Jun 08
Ayumi, there are a few people here that could help you with it if you need it. When you're ready, I'll ask them to help, ok? And you're most entirely welcome, darlin. You show a very gorgeous visage too, my dear, with the way you write and what you say. We'll all be happy to see the smile behind it. But not till you're ready. See you out there, my friend. Have some fun!!!!
• United States
30 Jun 08
Hi, sugar!!! It's funny, everyone is saying they pictured me with long, dark hair! I just wonder why. Interesting! But you're right, I was intensely nervous about it, honestly, ayumitakashi. I've been here a while, and everyone has their own picture of me in their head, and there's been so much said about me, so many immensely beautiful things, and I was afraid I'd never live up to people's vision of me. But I really wanted to do it too, after all this time, and mostly, I wanted for everyone to see me because it's all of you that I'm smiling at. It's all of you that I'm sending out love to with those pictures. But do it, ayumi. Take a realllllly deep breath, like I did, and just do it. I'd so love to see you!!! You're always very lovely when I see you post, and you say some very nice things, and quite intelligently too and I'd love to see the face behind that personna, behind that personality, that kindness, that big heart. So think about it, ok? I'm always delighted when I see that you've posted to one of my discussions, Ayumi. You're a joy. Thank you. XX
@moneyandgc (3428)
• United States
30 Jun 08
I've had my photo up from the first (my avatar) so I really never had the chance to get nervous about what others would think. I get more nervous about seeing people in person; even if I know them and just haven't seen them in awhile.
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• United States
30 Jun 08
I understand that completely, money. Makes sense to me. I'm so confident in so many areas, but this particular thing was a bit nerve wracking. But, I can breathe now, it's over and done. Yay!
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@lingli_78 (12822)
• Australia
30 Jun 08
you look really gorgeous nova... you are really beautiful... i am happy to be ablke to see your face as iu had responded to some of your discussions... there is nothing to be nervous about as you look great... take care and have a nice day... :-)
• United States
30 Jun 08
Oh my, you touch my heart with your compliments, Lingli. I know you've responded to some of my discussions - I remember you well. And you're always so kind, thank you so much. I'll look forward to seeing you again too. You take care too, and have a wonderful day!
@wolfie34 (26771)
• United Kingdom
29 Jun 08
Ok, do you want my honest, honest opinion? Well first of all I have to say it's about time, we got to see you and secondly, wait for it, I think you look beautiful, no seriously I am not fooling here, seeing your picture you come over bubbly, electric and very very warm, the kind of person I'd personally want to know, and for that matter glad I know! I don't know what you were worried about, truly, but I guess I can relate to how you feel deep deep down, I am very self conscious about my looks and my body and I find compliments slip over me and criticism I soak up like a sponge, I guess it's through being bullied for most of my early life. But listen to Wolfie and listen to Wolfie good I think you are lovely, and I am proud to have you as a friend xxx
• United States
29 Jun 08
Wow, Wolfie, when I saw that you were here, I was so happy!!!! And thank you, wow again, thank you, Wolfie, for saying such lovely things about me! I don't know what it is, I just get so damn nervous about this! Drives me crazier! But I thought it was about time too, and Angel helped me do it. Without her, y'all would never have seen me. You need to flip that around, Wolfie my love, that sponge thing, you know. But I can understand too, you know I can. Those bullies should be horsewhipped, and I'm not kidding. A$$holes! You are lovely too, you know. I love the way you look, and I especially love the way you are. You and your sister, honestly, are there two better people in the world? Don't think so. I had no idea you two were brother and sister till p1ke told me, but it made a sort of sense, it balanced, it was like, ahhhhhhh, I can SEE that. You know what I mean. Thanks again, Wolfie. You know I love you! XXXXX
@wolfie34 (26771)
• United Kingdom
29 Jun 08
I know and I appreciate it, and hey my sister sort of adopted me, I think we were separated at birth tho' we would be wild together LOL! Oh and I meant every word, I've always been honest and speak the way I find, best way, big hugs to you xxxx
• United States
29 Jun 08
Ooops, Wolfie, p1key just told me in an e-mail. Oh well, you seem like you're related, I swear you do. And if there was anyone I'd want to have for a brother or a sister, you two would be it. Thanks for what you said, too. I KNOW you mean it, I know you always mean what you say. Just another thing I love about you, my Wolfie. Hey, next full moon is on July 18th. Let's howl again, darlin.
• United States
30 Jun 08
Nova, Great pictures, though for some reason I was thinking you had long dark hair that flowed loose, and loose, hippy clothing! I was totally wrong, but very pleasantly surprised. My avatar really IS me, although circa November 2005. Thanks for being brave and sharing your picture!
• United States
30 Jun 08
Saucy thing that you are..... Well, it goes with my name! Actually, it was one of those Glamour Shots...$800+ for all of them and I wasn't overly happy (I really only wanted a head shot for my website..). But thanks baby!
• United States
30 Jun 08
Wow, that just kills me! Everyone pictured me with long dark hair. I find that so curious. But thanks, Scorp! I appreciate it, I really do. And it did take bravery too, believe me. Your pic is great! It's just so you, baby. Saucy thing that you are.....
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• United States
30 Jun 08
What a beautiful, exotic, southern face it is too!
• United States
30 Jun 08
from one to another, thank you. I'm so glad you're my sis. XXX
@Taskr36 (13963)
• United States
24 Aug 08
Good for you. I think it takes a bit of bravery to post your own pics in a place where other people may judge you. I haven't posted my pics because I prefer to keep just a bit of anonymity on the internet. I use the same handle pretty much anywhere so there are bound to be people who know me IRL that will eventually see me here and know who I am, but that's not too big a deal for me.
• United States
26 Aug 08
Well hello, my new friend! Thanks. I had been here for quite a while and no one but p1kef1sh knew what I looked like so I thought I'd show them all my smiling face. And yes, it was really pretty scary to put my face out there to be judged as anyone saw fit, but it was, at the same time, something I wanted to do. So I took the plunge. And as it turned out, the water was very friendly. I'm very happy to see you here, Taskr. Thanks so much for your comments. I'm curious about you and look forward to seeing more of you.
@CanadaGal (4304)
• Canada
15 Sep 08
I saw that you added your pic to facebook just the other week. It is so great to put a face to the name! :D I almost always post a pic of myself on sites right away, so I don't have to deal with the fear of someone not knowing what I look like and coming up with their own ideas. So I really cannot relate to you there. However, I do get a bit nervous when meeting someone in person, even though they've seen lots of pics of me. I feel I photograph better than I look in person you see. lol. Maybe we can meet someday and you can tell me. ;)
• United States
18 Sep 08
Wow, CG, you like your photos better than your "in person"? Boy, I wish I did! I hate photos of myself! But hey, you're beautiful, whether in photos or in person, CG, take my word for it. And thank you for not saying you thought I had long brown hair! Soooo many other people did! funny, how people see us when they haven't seen us.......
@Hatley (163781)
• Garden Grove, California
30 Jun 08
hi novataylor You look just like I thought you would, you are pretty and lively and fun to be around and I love you hair. Me I am elderly and white haired and do not take a very good photo. You look like a person who gets a large 'charge out of life, and thats a wonderful way to look, believe me.
• United States
30 Jun 08
Hatley, thank you so much! So you didn't picture me with long dark hair like everyone else did? GOOD! That's so funny, they all seem to think I have long dark hair. And you're right - I absolutely get a charge out of life, every day. And I look for it too, that charge, I always look for fun. White-haired or not, I'm very sure that you're beautiful, Hatley. Everything you say is always very loving and kind and that comes from beauty. So you are beautiful. Age doesn't detract from beauty - it changes it, it give it character and depth, but it doesn't take the beauty away that's already there. Thank you so much for your kind words. You have touched my heart.
@Rosekitty (19368)
• San Marcos, Texas
29 Jun 08
There you are my Darling Nova and glad i finally get to put a face which i expected as a redhead..hee hee to the name..actually even though i thought you might look this way i was hoping you would have longer hair with flowers in it..My hippie Sis!! Now where's the men? Is that why you are smiling..you have someone there with you? You better share cause i'm coming there to have fun too! Huggles and Love!
• United States
30 Jun 08
Sweetie, you're fast becoming my sister, so you, I'll share with! No long hair though, sorry. I used to wear it long, but I like it better short. And yeah, I'm a red-head. This is color though. I have a lot of red in my hair naturally, but I got a "wild hair" recently and put some highlight into it, and got freaked out and washed it out, but I ended up with a polka dot on the back of my head, so I put another color, Darkest Blonde, on it, and it of course turned as red as you see here. Everything turns red on my hair! But it goes with my eyes, which are hazel - green, gold and brown. They go very green when I'm mad or when I cry. So at least, it doesn't look too odd. Huggles and love to you too, sis. You so rock. And you're beautiful too - I've seen your pic. Before you changed your avatar, that is. Long blonde hair, VERY nice rack, if you don't mind my saying so, and absolutely gorgeous. Show it again! Show us more!!! XXXX
@polachicago (18716)
• United States
29 Jun 08
You are very warm person with million dollar smile Nova. I am very happy to see your smile.... HUGS
• United States
29 Jun 08
Thank you Pola!!!! I'm very happy to have been able to share my smile with you, darling friend. I just want you all to see my smile because it's for you. I wanted to really put myself out there - I thought it was time. Hugs back to you too.
@mummymo (23706)
30 Jun 08
I already knew you were gorgeous inside and out honey but it is so good to see a close up of your beautiful smiling face and those sparkly, warm eyes! The last time I saw you on camera I didn't get a good look at your face but I am glad I have gotten to now! I hate photographs of myself - a few people have seen some and haven't recoiled in horror but I still hate seeing my own photos which is probably why I don't post them! Hugs xxx
@skinnychick (6905)
• United States
30 Jun 08
I can't wait to see it. :) It doesn't make me nervous at all. I figure if people don't want to see me, they can just not look. :) I don't photograph well. I hate taking pictures. I guess I'm a little camera shy.
@ellie333 (21016)
29 Jun 08
Hi Nova, you look fabulous. That really is a beautiful smiling face and I am so pleased to have seen the warmth I have felt from you for real in your face. What a darling. For me when I first joined my original avatar was a pic I had of myself and my eldest daughter so I have never experienced this feeling of being nervous but for someone who has always had an avatar and no pics I can imagine how you must have felt. Ellie :D
• United States
29 Jun 08
Thank you so much, sweetheart. I feel so complimented, honestly, and I think I'm actually blushing! But if you see my warmth and the love that I feel for all of you, then that makes me very happy, because that's what I want you to see. I took these with my webcam one day, and it was all of you that I'm smiling at in them. And I just had to show you all the "real me", with my reading glasses on my nose, peeking over the top of them. It was fun taking them, and now I'm so relieved that they're finally out there! No more mystery! Now all of you know. Ain't no Cleopatra here. But there IS a woman who cares so much for all of you and I thank you from the bottom of my heart. XXX
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@p1kef1sh (45681)
29 Jun 08
You show me yours........ Beautiful photos Nova. I am so pleased that you've got them up at last. The mystery about looks may have gone, but those words. Where do you keep them? Such poetry from our fiery redheaded siren.
• United States
29 Jun 08
Darling p1key. Remember how self-conscious and nervous I was the first time we Skyped after I got my webcam? Wow, I couldn't sit still to save my life. And thank you too, so much, for what you've said here. Fiery redheaded siren. Ha, I like that. But where do I keep my words? Hey, I thought you had them all safe and sound in my own special drawer!! Don't tell me you've lost them! Now what will I do? No more mystery. Wow. What a concept!
@lou1982 (122)
29 Jun 08
i totally agree i think everyone feels that way everyone has things they would like to change about their self but people that judge you on what you look like are not worth knowing. i think its what your like on the inside that counts and it shines through. :)
• United States
29 Jun 08
Hello, lou, and welcome to the Lot! I agree dear, it's what's on the inside that counts. And that's part of what I wanted my friends here to see in these photos. I wanted them to see my smiling face, to see the warmth in my eyes and the love in my smile. They know me already. Now they finally get to put a face to the name and to the words. And this is funny, lou. My original avatar was exactly the same as yours! Small world. Very nice to see you here. I wish you many hours of fun here on the Lot. The people here are the very best. You can take that one to the bank.