I'm Rather Embarrassed Now
By celticeagle
@celticeagle (186266)
Boise, Idaho
March 5, 2026 4:59pm CST
The mobile x-ray folks called. When I told them that I am upstairs they weren't sure they could get the machinery up the stairs. So the doctor's assistant called to see if we could do a out patient one. I explained that I have social anxiety and am not able to just go--- i have to have some time to plan it out for my mind to be able to go forward. I told him I think I may have pneumonia. He agreed.
I feel like an idiot. Thanks to Housing and how we have to have our furniture in the living room the x-ray equipment would not fit there either.
My mind is going back and forth. I need to get the x-ray but I can't go outside. Oh,boy! So infantile.
Woe is me.
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9 responses
@MarieCoyle (55570)
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15h
As Eva and Lenore suggested, just go, and take your grandson and daughter for support. It has to be done, if you have pneumonia you need to know to get proper meds, etc. Your kiddos need you, take care of yourself and then you can work on getting better.
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@celticeagle (186266)
• Boise, Idaho
14h
Just go, huh? I've been hearing that so much. People who don't know anything about anxiety. Just do it. It seems so easy to those who don't suffer from it.
But thanks. I will see what tomorrow holds.
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@MarieCoyle (55570)
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14h
@celticeagle
I don't mean it in a bad way. We just want you to be OK, and if you need medical attention, and they can't come to you...well, there doesn't seem to be an option. I just know from what all you have shared here, you love your family very much, and they love you deeply as well. I hate to think of you struggling to breathe.
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@sallypup (68172)
• Centralia, Washington
13h
@celticeagle I know about anxiety. It took me literally 30 years to get a blood test. I think you are very important. It's time to lean on your daughter and go get help.
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@Ineeddentures (20469)
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17h
I agree with what Lenore says
I think you can go outside if the circumstances demand it
I know your anxiety is real and I know how difficult to manage some situations it can be
But I think this is serious enough to take priority
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@celticeagle (186266)
• Boise, Idaho
14h
I can, yes. I just have to give myself time and work up to it. I'll see how tomorrow goes.
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@Ineeddentures (20469)
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12h
@celticeagle
Keep us posted.
Yvonne said to say good luck
She knows first hand what you must be going through
@kaylachan (83446)
• Daytona Beach, Florida
14h
You have some hard questions you have to anser. How badly do you want to live? What do you want your family to do, if you stop breathing/can't breathe? You need to weigh thease things against your fears.
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@wolfgirl569 (130628)
• Marion, Ohio
16h
Maybe take a sedative first like Lenore suggested. Just get it done and over with
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@celticeagle (186266)
• Boise, Idaho
14h
That's a very good idea. I'll see what tomorrow holds.
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@celticeagle (186266)
• Boise, Idaho
14h
I am too. I will see what tomorrow holds.
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@RebeccasFarm (91241)
• United States
3h
You've weathered so many storms Celt! I know you can do this..take yourself there! I understand you and I wish I were near to help. I am so sorry you are so sick.
@DaddyEvil (169371)
• United States
8h
I hope you can get something figured out. I'm sorry you're having more problems. 
@LindaOHio (215562)
• United States
5h
As others have suggested, take your daughter and grandson along. This is something that must be done if you have pneumonia or another serious illness. Good luck.
