Now I know what is going on.

@GardenGerty (157563)
United States
September 2, 2012 5:44pm CST
Periodically today, and even yesterday, I have thought of calling my mom. That is a good thing, right? Well in this case it would be kind of hard, she has been dead for almost eleven years. I called her most Saturdays for many years, because I lived quite a distance away. I always tried to visit on her birthday, if I could, except I did not, that last year. She died the next week. My mother would have been ninety two today. I guess I am thinking of her whether I know it or not. I hope you visit your loved ones regularly. Happy Birthday, Mom.
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@deazil (4723)
• United States
2 Sep 12
Hi, GG. I miss my mom. She passed away 7 years ago and would be 94 now. I talked to her 4-5 times a week and she only lived 15min. away. Well, actually, the way I drive it was only 10. I went over 2-3 times a week, sometimes more. I miss her a lot. I took her cat to live with me. He's pretty old and I know when he goes it will be like losing the only connection I have with her. I don't know if that sounds strange. It's just the way I feel. It's sad, losing your mother. Things aren't good for me right now and I sure wish she was here to help me.
• United States
2 Sep 12
No, that's not strange at all about the cat, and I'm sure everyone here would understand that. If you have problems you can come here and spill them out until you feel you have found your answer. There are tons of Mom's here who would love to give you any advice you need, or just listen..whatever you choose. Everybody needs somebody to talk to.
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@deazil (4723)
• United States
2 Sep 12
Thanks, Kash. I appreciate that. I'm just a (64yr old) crybaby, that's all.
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@GardenGerty (157563)
• United States
3 Sep 12
deazil, I have felt that way before as well. You are not a crybaby, whatever the problem. Kash is right, either you can come post about the problems you have or if you like send a friend a personal message.
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@WakeUpKitty (8694)
• Netherlands
2 Sep 12
I don't know if it's good you called her weekly, did she like it? or did you just feel obliged to do so? I think if your children live far away, or even at the moment they leave your house, they start their own life and that is what it means to raise a child into an adult. I seldom call, I hate calling.. by now I sent emails (or not). It's ages ago I called my granny nearly weekly so I did to other people. You know what? They never called me to ask me how I was doing. So at a certain point I did quit calling them all.
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@GardenGerty (157563)
• United States
2 Sep 12
She would have never learned to e mail. She did like my calls. I liked to talk to her. There are very few people I call anymore. I will probably call my daughter sometime today, she is over six hundred miles away, but I would like it better if she would call me, because then I would know that I was not disturbing her when she is busy. If I am at home I am never too busy to talk.
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@Hatley (163781)
• Garden Grove, California
3 Sep 12
hi cnythiann I agree wholehearted and am so glad we all three were family and stayed connected., Now its just my son and I' and we still stay connected.he spent last night visiting wit he and as usuall it was a lovely visit too.even when I was working as a young woman I went back to my parents farm on weekends as family is always family.I see people here who never get one visit in monghs and their families live here in Garden Grove.
• United States
2 Sep 12
Happy Birthday GG's Mom! That's a sad story GG and I think you should write her a letter telling her how much you miss her. It's between you and her and I believe they are around and will contact you one way or the other. I know you can't call her but I find it strange that you keep thinking about it. Write her a letter, you'll feel better. My mom and dad are both gone so I can't visit no more. It's only my sister and me that is left so I think I will try to go visit her this week.
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@GardenGerty (157563)
• United States
3 Sep 12
It has not been a bad or sad feeling, just like she is here. I even dreamed about her this afternoon. I have a sister and a brother and my dad to still visit with.
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@lelin1123 (15595)
• Puerto Rico
2 Sep 12
So sorry for the loss of your mom. I dread that day. My parents live in Florida and I live in Puerto Rico. I haven't seen them in about a year. I do talk to my parents at least once a day if not every other day. We also enjoy skyping once in a while. I keep saying I have to go and visit soon but I just haven't found a window of opportunity to do so. Now that they are in their mid seventy it so scares me that one day I will get the dreaded call and I didn't get to see them before they left this earth.
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@GardenGerty (157563)
• United States
3 Sep 12
this is part of why I travel to see my dad as often as possible. He was not as old as my mom, and they were divorced, but that does not matter. I want to see him as often as possible right now while he knows it. He is 80, almost 81.
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• Philippines
2 Sep 12
Happy birthday to your mom. Though she is not around already I know that she is within your heart. Anyway, What you are feeling is acceptable. You love her. We all do love our moms.I hope your okay now. Have a nice day!:)
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@GardenGerty (157563)
• United States
3 Sep 12
I am glad that I figured out why I kept thinking about her. Yes, she is always with me.
• United States
2 Sep 12
Happy Birthday to your Mom! I lost my mother 13 years ago, 3 days after her birthday in April and to this day there are times when I think to pick up the phone to call her. When she was here and I'd feel bad about something I'd call my mother just to hear her voice. I might never discuss whatever my problem was I'd just listen to her and I'd feel better. I can't tell you how much I miss being able to call her. After she passed away, a woman said to me "she'll never be gone, she'll always be here..and here" pointing to my head and my heart. And thankfully she's right.
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@GardenGerty (157563)
• United States
3 Sep 12
That is very true, and it snuck up on me this week. Most times we went to see her Labor Day weekend. She did not like to go out too much, but I remember one year we made a brunch at my sister's house for all to enjoy. I did call her every week, and felt it was helpful to her as well as to me. It just helps to feel connected.
• United States
2 Sep 12
Happy birthday Gertie's Mom! I remember when I worked at my last full time job-I'd often call my mother at lunch and ask her about different things. I got used to it, I guess. One day in late 2002, I had a question that I KNEW I couldn't ask my dad about, and started to call her. Then I stopped because she had passed in March that year.. I burst into tears right then and there because it finally hit me. Her birthday was in mid-May-shed have been 74 years old.
@GardenGerty (157563)
• United States
3 Sep 12
It just feels like something is suddenly missing. I do not know when these things end. Our loved ones are still here with us in our hearts and minds.
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@GardenGerty (157563)
• United States
3 Sep 12
I lost several people in a row, so randomly I find that something would be good to share with someone and it comes to me. Hatley, they have to ask you that stupid stuff when you are in the hospital to make sure you are "alert and oriented X3" so please do not let them send you to a looney bin. It is amazing, but sometimes a UTI will cause disorientation and confusion people. Your roomie is fortunate to have you and GoldCrest is as well as you make their job easier by helping her out.
• United States
3 Sep 12
GG-I was in the mall, not long after my mom had passed, near the fountains where we loved to go (by her favorite store). I sat down, a bit overwhelmed, and figured I'd just start crying. My daughter was with me, but not sitting right by me. I began to feel someone hugging me and I must have said out loud, Stop Syd, I don't want a hug! when she heard me. She grabbed my arm and said, Mom, it's not me! That's when I knew that what I felt was my mom letting me know she would always be there, but that I had to go on for Sydney. I haven't felt my mom's presence like that since then. I still miss her.
@dragon54u (31636)
• United States
3 Sep 12
I know the feeling. I lost my mom last February and my dad this February and I still want to email them or call them. It's so hard! So I just talk to them. I know they are waiting for me and the separation is temporary. Happy birthday to your mom! Are you having a slice of cake to celebrate? I celebrate both my parents' birthdays. Even though they split up when I was a teen, they both worked so hard to raise me properly and I'm so very grateful that God allowed me to have them in my life. So I celebrate their birthdays in gratitude.
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@missybear (11391)
• United States
3 Sep 12
For the last 28 years me and my mom talk once a week, she's in Germany and I'm in America, the only time we don't talk is when one of us is on vacation. She will be here on Friday and Sunday is her 75th birthday. I don't know what I do when I won't have her calls anymore
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@GardenGerty (157563)
• United States
3 Sep 12
Yay!!! Mom is coming to visit. I hope it is a long time before you are confronted with not having her calls.Give her big hugs. It would be awful to be that far away.
@missybear (11391)
• United States
3 Sep 12
It is , especially since I'm scared of flying so it's not like I can visit whenever I want to
@dismalgrin (2604)
• United States
3 Sep 12
It's always sad when you lose a loved one. I still often think of sharing stuff with my brother and he has been gone about 3 years. They say the first two years are the hardest, but I think everytime something big happens that you would want to share with that loved one you have to realive the pain large as life.
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@GardenGerty (157563)
• United States
3 Sep 12
What a memory to have. I actually ran in Wal Mart while we were on the road and thought they had a disaster movie on their television. . . it was definitely a disaster.
@allknowing (130064)
• India
3 Sep 12
Honestly GG I have given up. I used to be someone who connected each other by having get togethers, visiting regularly and so on. But this has to be reciprocated for it to become a way with anyone. And that is not the case with my family. Each one is buried in their own life having no time to interact with, other than their nucleus! But when it came to my beloved mother, I did that until I lost her a few years ago. I consider my mother to be the best in the world. This hug is for her.
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@GardenGerty (157563)
• United States
3 Sep 12
I can tell you learned well from your mother. I hope our family never gets too busy for one another. My brother made a trip up here because my sister does not get down to see him often and he wanted her to see his new truck. I do not know how the next generation after us will be. My older sister's kids come to things when invited, but do not even go out of their way to care for their mother. My daughter has already told me that she would take care of me, and my husband if we ever needed it. Same for her inlaws and she says the same about my brother, who has no kids. She is a very old fashioned girl. My brother has no children, although he has informally stood in with a multitude of young people. My younger sister is deceased and her boys are almost like lost souls.
@allknowing (130064)
• India
3 Sep 12
I am happy for you GG. You are right. I doubt if the next generation would have the same kind of bonding that exists between our generation, although that too I find is slowly eroding - I see that happening in my family!
@HomeBase (1153)
• United States
3 Sep 12
That is so sweet. I know that your Mother still appreciates you til this day. She is still with you. My mom and I are on the outs with each other. I have not seen her for many, many years. Too bad, I love and adore her but she really doesn't know me and has been disappointed in me over the years for many reasons. It is hard to get your Mother's approval when it seems she is geared to believe the worst of you, no matter what. Anyway, I also wish your Mom a Happy Birthday.
@GardenGerty (157563)
• United States
3 Sep 12
I hope someday she does appreciate you for being exactly who you are meant to be. My older sister says that Mom never loved her, but I do not believe it. I saw what mom did for her and was envious the whole time. They were much alike, and my sister acts more and more like her now that she is gone. They spoke, they were around each other, but sometimes I think they never communicated with each other.
• India
3 Sep 12
Hi friend, good to know about your mother's b'day. As you mentioned she gone away before 11 years, hope her soul will RIP, you remember about her on her special day.
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@GardenGerty (157563)
• United States
3 Sep 12
Thanks, yes, I think I was remembering her, before I realized what I was doing. She is in peace now.
• United Arab Emirates
3 Sep 12
oh so sorry , it happens to me too. i have no mum and dad till i was just 3 years old . i understand your felling now . what was you felt when you left someone who really admire to you. i visit to my mum and dad QAbar on Ramadan And Eid Day , And her and his Barsi . it is in my religion in Islam .
@GardenGerty (157563)
• United States
3 Sep 12
It is sad that you lost your parents so young. I am glad that you remember them on the appropriate days.
@drannhh (15219)
• United States
3 Sep 12
Yes, it is odd how we remember the birthdays and other special days of people long after they have passed on.
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@GardenGerty (157563)
• United States
3 Sep 12
I do find it strange when I start thinking of someone a lot. I learned a long time ago that my mind has these anniversaries marked even when I do not acknowledge them.
@ANTIQUELADY (36440)
• United States
2 Sep 12
AWWWW, it can be good & bad to get something like that on your mind.I don't have any loved ones left to visit other than my kids & one uncle who is in pretty bad shape. Happy birthday, gg's mom.
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@GardenGerty (157563)
• United States
3 Sep 12
It's okay. I still have some family left to share memories with. I just was finding it so strange that I kept thinking of her and that she was also in my dream today.
@cynthiann (18602)
• Jamaica
3 Sep 12
Cherish the memory of your mother and think of her often, I am sure that she is thinking and loving you in the next world. She is somewhere near - just around the corner and has stepped into life as it is meant to be - with God. Many blessings and rest assured, she is having a wonderful birthday in heaven.
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@GardenGerty (157563)
• United States
3 Sep 12
One of the things I realized a long while ago is that I would not be the person I am without my two parents and their talents and quirks. Yes, I always knew my mother loved me. Not everyone can say that.
@gloryacam (5540)
• Philippines
3 Sep 12
Happy birthday to your mom. And, I kinda know how you feel. I lost my dad this year in March. And it's his birthday in 3 days. I still have his mobile number and we still have his phone. For the last nth years, I have texted him on his birthday. I think I will send a text message on that day. Not a day goes by that I don't think about him. And on occasions like these - birthdays, the sadness becomes all the more painful. He would have turned 61 this year. So young.
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@GardenGerty (157563)
• United States
3 Sep 12
That is very young. I am 59. I am sorry you are missing him. Our family travels with us in our memories. Send the text, think wonderful loving thoughts. I think I will go email my daughter.
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@jenny1015 (13366)
• Philippines
3 Sep 12
I was touched with what you said. I know you miss her a lot. But don't be sad, she is just watching over you.
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@GardenGerty (157563)
• United States
3 Sep 12
I am not really sad, more relieved to know why she has been on my mind and in my dreams so much lately.
@koopharper (7477)
• Canada
3 Sep 12
I live a long way from my parents. I call them on their birthday's and on Mother's Day and Father's Day. We really don't see eye to eye on a lot of things. I do wish we could see them more. We moved far away hoping to move forward financially and not struggle as much as we have. The move backfired and we are in many ways worse off than we were. As a result we don't have the ability to go visit any time soon. In spite of our differences we love each other and not being able to see them at all hurts. They both turn eighty-six this fall. Dad had a stroke last winter and Mom has had a lot of trouble with her medication. Not sure how much time I have to gain the necessary funds and pay them a visit.
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@GardenGerty (157563)
• United States
3 Sep 12
I am sorry you are far away from them and have a lot of sympathy about it. My dad is 80 and still is living. I would like to travel to see him once a month but it does not always happen.
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