At my wits end!!!!!!!

I already tried my insurance company you can look at my previous two discussions,and it will let you know all the background. I don't know for sure about if there is anything in my home this is just my gut feeling.
Also I am behind on my mortgage on this trailer so they can come foreclose on me for that.

Thank you for the prayers I need lots of them right now.

thanks purple I am just so lost,I have never been threw anything like this so everything new scares me to death.

When you are in the middle of a major anxiety attack, everything and anything can scare you, especially things that are new and different. It is best to try to do things with other people that you trust, because that can help ease the anxiety and help you to feel safer and more secure. I don't mean a bunch of people, since I know that is one of the things that triggers your anxiety, but I mean a close friend or family member. Unfortunately, you don't really have a lot of options in that area at the moment, since hubby works and you don't have transportation and probably shouldn't be driving anyway.

I know that you are worried about the little one, but try cuddling and doing things with her, especially while she is sick, and that might help both of you to feel better. If you are doing things together, then you will know if she starts to have a seizure without having to consciously check all the time to make sure she is alright. That might help to ease your anxiety, too. I know that the best thing would be to move out as quickly as possible, but until you are able to do that you need to do these small things to make life at least a little more bearable.

I agree with purple. I also suggest trying not to do everything at one time. I know it's urgent to get these things done but try doing 1 phone call every couple of hours. Don't call everyone one right after the other. If you can't get a response, try to brush it off and go on to the next step and go back to it later. I would try to get your husband to make some calls for you too, maybe he has a lunch break when he can call from work? I don't know your or his schedules but it sounds like you really need his help to make these calls. Maybe you have a friend that could call for you? I'm sending you hugs, hugs, hugs..................

Yes Camomom, you make an excellent point about not trying to do everything at one time. Do one thing and then take a break. I know that time is of the essence, but pressuring yourself will only add to the anxiety. If you do not hear back, then try to schedule a follow-up call or e-mail the next day or even two. If your hubby can help out with even one or two calls, that would take some of the pressure and off of you, which should help a little with your anxiety. Every little bit helps, especially during a really bad anxiety attack.

No that's for the cost of the trailer the rent there is only $372 if I buy that trailer outright. Sorry I am having trouble wording my words right.

$1000 is a great price to buy a trailer but I think the lot rent is a bit high. It's still cheaper then a house or apartment, atleast where I live it is. I lived in a single wide, 2 bedroom, 1 bath, the rent was $275 a month and the payments were $182 a month. We paid $13,000.00 for the trailer but had to get a loan to do so.
I personally think that what you found is a great deal, as long as there aren't health issues or major repairs needed.
Good luck. I hope everything works out for you.

we checked out the trailer and it needs all new everything pretty much,I don't think we can fix it up plus pay rent and keep paying rent here too.

1. I don't know if it is formaldehyde that is what the EPA and the health department thinks it is.
2. I have severe anxiety and bi polar as well so I can't just calm down as normal people can do.
3. I get anxious and start to gag just calling the pizza delivery place let alone speaking to a EPA person so emailing is always easier for me.
3. It is hard to focus on myself when my daughter is home sick,I have to watch her constantly to make sure she doesn't have a seizure,I even have to get online in spurts.
4.I haven't talked the to park because i don't know if they will even care and usually I just have my husband talk to them as that scares me too.

You need to have a serious talk with social services about your own physical condition.
Your fears are not unfounded. They are real to you but to most of the world they can be handled differently and with less drama.
Take time to consider your daughter and your husband and take measures to ensure they do not end up with your bo polar problem--if at all possilbe.
Make life easier by breathing deep breaths and letting that little girl see that her mom is not just bonkers for no reason at all.
I do understand your delimma and wish there was something I could do, but your best bet and the best thing for your family is to get help from social services.
God bless.

I know that what you are saying is coming from a place of kindness and caring, but it is not as easy as what you are suggesting. First, Bi-polar disorder is not contagious, but it may be hereditary, since it is due to a chemical imbalance in the brain. Therefore, Angie's husband and daughter will not end up with her "Bi-polar problem" just by being around her, but they do need to understand it and learn how to deal with it. That could be much more difficult for her daughter, since she has disabilities herself, but little ones seem to sense and understand things that are sometimes more difficult for adults to understand, so I think it will be fine. Obviously it is better for everyone if Angie can remain calm and not have anxiety, but sometimes that just isn't an option, and she is definitely NOT "just bonkers for no reason".

I do realize she's not bonkers. I was just attempting to soothe her a bit and hopefully spare her daughter from her ranting.
I hope she is taking her meds properly.
I've dealt wiht bi polars all my life and do understand.
The daughter tho she might be able to sense her mother's problem also senses her irrationality with her own daughter's illness.
I was only trying to help,
so sorry.
I hope you are close enough to her to get her the help she desperately needs.

Hi quita,

Just to let you know Angie does take her meds properly when she has them. For awhile she didn't have medical insurance so she had to be off of them but now that problem is solved. To tell you the truth,... even without bipolar disorder or anxiety, I think almost anyone dealing with the bucket load of crap Angie has had to deal with these past few months would have already broken down.

There is much more than what is posted in this particular discussion. I can see you had good intentions with your advise, and I can see you were trying to be caring, maybe for future reference try to word things a little different? People especially those with anxiety/bipolar disorders, depression etc. can be more sensitive when they are having a crisis, and sometimes though we mean well, what we say, type, or write can come off completely the opposite of what we truly mean.

I many times during an anxiety attack have taken things in a different manner than what they were meant, but a lot of it had to do with how they were said.

Olydove, you make an excellent point about people being more sensitive when they are in a crisis, especially if they have other issues like Bi-polar disorder or anxiety. I think the suggestion about re-wording things is a very good piece of advice, and we can all step back and try to understand how our words might sound to other people.

Quita, I am sorry if it sounds like we are being mean or ganging up on you, but that is not our intention. We are just very protective of Angie, and we are worried about how she might take things and want to spare her any additional hurt, since she is going through so much right now already. Both Olydove and I have stated that we realize that you are speaking from a place of kindness and caring, so please do not think that we are being mean. You did have some helpful suggestions, such as calling the social worker, so I am definitely not trying to discourage you from replying or giving suggestions and a different viewpoint. I hope you didn't take offense at my comments.

Please do not worry.
I was only trying to help.
I hope you all take care of Angie.

Once again, do not worry.
Take care of Angie.
Someone has to.

Well we're doing the best we can through the net. In some cases that can be very powerful and I know from experience. I tell you what though I wish I had mylot back in 2002. Holy cow could I have used some good advise then!

Wishing you all well and happy mylotting

We all can use good advice and that is what I thought I was doing.

I know how hard life can be myself and do try to take all advice and put it to good use.
I know with my husband who also suffers bi polar disorder, that I have learned that all these years, I've been an enabler.
In other words, I've allowed him to do his crappy little stuff and allowing him to get away with it.
I had to learn, thru drs, psychologists that if I let him know he was wrong and not literally, but took him by the shoulders and shook him, he stopped the bonkers attitude.
I do that to this day and telling him he needs to just sit back and think about what he is doing not only to himself but to others who don't understand that is he making life harder for all concerned.
It doesnt' always work at least at first, but truly he's been better since he's learned I won't take his flying off the handle, feeling sorry for himself, pity potty attitude type of stuff.
He is a good man and I'm sure Angie is too as well as you must be to try and help her.
She needs the advantages of social services in the case she was talking about.
I think of all the people who sit on Wal Mart 's corner begging for food and there are so many institutions, facilities that will help and not charge a dime and here they are begging???
But, thanks for responding and please remember, I am not the kind to hurt anyone either with words or actions.
Take care,
quita

quita I thank you for trying to help and I did take it a bit wrong at first because I was in a panic,but I know you were only being helpful. I am taking my meds and don't let my daughter see me get upset,I usually leave the room or am on here venting and what not.

Thanks purple for explaining things a bit more and for being here for me,you ahve helped me out a lot lately.

Oly you know me so well and yes there is far more going on that just want this discussion or the others talk about. Hugs to you all.

Hey sweetie, you know that I have your back. I also knew that Quita wasn't trying to be mean, but that it might sound that way, so I just wanted to help everybody without any misunderstandings. I am sending you a great, big hug, Angie dear!

send her all the hugs you want to. I'm sure she needs them.
Misunderstandings? The ones YOU caused.
re-read my mail to her.
Nothing was/is bad or ugly in it and you and another of your friends have made it sound like I was a monster.
You have sent this to me, Quita intenionally hoping I'd back off but girl, you've caused me a lot of hurt and even angie should realize I said nothing in my response to her that would have hurt her.
I swear this is disgusting that you'd stoop this low.
Just do me one favor and never send me any more mails, either for me on purpose or sneakily like this one is.
Quita

Quita I was reading here as I follow babyangie's story when she updates with a discussion here but I am at a loss reading your least comment. Surely you are over-reacting there? I cannot see anything (and I read it all through again after reading your comment) that needs for you to leave such a comment. I feel you should read it all again too

Thanks hun but I can't pay the mortgage I don't have it. See even if nothing is wrong with this place I cant afford both the lot rent and the mortgage payment anymore,it is not feasible. Plus I am behind almost 3 grand with them on top of it all.
I will make some phone calls tomorrow and keep you updated. Thank you for always being so understandable and so kind to me and being the Queen of searching the web

LOL @ web search Queen. Hey I guess it's good to be the Queen of something right? Oh girl, what are we going to do with you. I completely understand about not having enough to cover both mortgage and lot rent, and I owe you a sincere apology I forgot to get that number for the Housing Authority. So I will do that now before I forget again

Sending a mylot PM now! Got the official website with contact information. Give them a call first thing in the AM (if you haven't already that is) and I will continue to look for other resources.

I am now feeling a bit better so well call also I am sending yet another email to the EPA maybe another person this time and not the one guy since he has yet to respond,this all seems weird if they all think it is somehting why are they not acting on it?

I have 2 dogs and two cats too and no they aren't as important as my daughter but they are still family. Most apartments here are pricey or no space at all. But I am not about to give up,because really there is only one true way out and I just can't do that to my family.
A kid in her glass has the swine flu so I think that is what is stressing me most about her still being sick.

If there was a child sick with it in her class, since she has other problems, you may want to call and see if the doctor wants to put her on the tamiflu.

I agree with thoroughrob about the Tamiflu. Also hun any updates?

She is much better,went to school today. I have been sick pretty much since Friday but feel ok for the moment.

Thanks Dawn I know that mnay places have to give you some kind of notice but when I get one of my panic attacks my mind goes all crazy and more than usual I mean. I will be making phone calls tomorrow and hugs back hun.

yeah easy to panic when you have a sick child:=(

And I do pray Bluepatch everyday and alot! Sometimes it isn't enough sad to say and I think that is because of my disease,the anxiety attacks the mind and bi polar does to in many ways.

Thanks gabs hun and I hope you and Gissi are well.
I will try calling the social worker bad thing about that is it is almost impossible to get a hold of them. With Michigan being hit hard as many other states alot ore people are getting help. And I live in the biggest county here so i am small potatoes when it comes to my social worker,but I wil try it is all I can do now.