He is gone!
By Lena Kovadlo
Staten Island, New York
May 11, 2022 5:35pm CST
It feels so surreal to know that my dad is no longer with us. He passed away on the morning of May 10th at 70 years of age. He would have been 71 June 29th. It hurts that he is gone but at least he is in peace now. No more suffering. No more pain. It's gonna be a very hard day for me tomorrow. It's not easy now either. I try to hold it together but it's hard. I have breakdowns where I start crying and can't stop. He will be put to rest in a cemetery by my house, the same place where his parents are buried. And my maternal grandpa and his brother and brother's wife. So he will always be close to me distance-wise. I will be able to stand on a hill next to my house and talk to him, without going to his grave. You will always be in my heart papa!
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• United States
My sincere condolences. It's a hard thing to lose a parent. When my dad passed, he was awful sick so like you, there was a bit of relief mixed in with the sadness. He wasn't in pain anymore. Lost and gone, but free from his daily battle to live. It DOES get better over time but afford yourself a few breakdowns. They are a healthy way to grieve. So sorry for your loss.
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@lovebuglena That is natural that you would have periods where you would cry off and can't stop. I am so so sorry for your loss. He was young and so close to his 71st birthday. I am so glad you will be able to talk to him when you want. I lost my grandfather when I was 14 years old and still miss him so much today.
• Staten Island, New York
Thank you! I had an image of my dad on my phone from the hospital where he is connected to that damn ventilator. I guess my mom must have sent it to me at one point. I deleted that. Don't want that in my possession.