He is gone!

@lovebuglena (35983)
Staten Island, New York
May 11, 2022 5:35pm CST
It feels so surreal to know that my dad is no longer with us. He passed away on the morning of May 10th at 70 years of age. He would have been 71 June 29th. It hurts that he is gone but at least he is in peace now. No more suffering. No more pain. It's gonna be a very hard day for me tomorrow. It's not easy now either. I try to hold it together but it's hard. I have breakdowns where I start crying and can't stop. He will be put to rest in a cemetery by my house, the same place where his parents are buried. And my maternal grandpa and his brother and brother's wife. So he will always be close to me distance-wise. I will be able to stand on a hill next to my house and talk to him, without going to his grave. You will always be in my heart papa!
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• United States
11 May
My sincere condolences. It's a hard thing to lose a parent. When my dad passed, he was awful sick so like you, there was a bit of relief mixed in with the sadness. He wasn't in pain anymore. Lost and gone, but free from his daily battle to live. It DOES get better over time but afford yourself a few breakdowns. They are a healthy way to grieve. So sorry for your loss.
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@lovebuglena (35983)
• Staten Island, New York
11 May
Thank you. My dad was in the hospital for over a month before he passed. I never imagined his passing away not in his sleep in his own bed. That's how my grandma (his mom) left.
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@lovebuglena (35983)
• Staten Island, New York
11 May
@Vikingswest1 I hope to go in my sleep as well. My dad was on a ventilator. So terrible.
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• United States
11 May
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@CarolDM (186867)
• United States
11 May
So sorry for your loss. Try to remember the good times.
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@lovebuglena (35983)
• Staten Island, New York
11 May
I remember us going mushroom foraging. It was one of his favorite things to do. And mine.
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@CarolDM (186867)
• United States
11 May
@lovebuglena Keep talking abut these times if it helps. I know it helps me when I remember the happy times.
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@lovebuglena (35983)
• Staten Island, New York
11 May
@CarolDM It still feels a bit surreal.
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@MarieCoyle (5518)
11 May
I am very sorry. I know how hard it is. Try to remember the good times when you can. You are going to break down and that's ok, it's normal, just cry it out and it will help in the end. Take care of yourself.
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@MALUSE (68414)
• Germany
11 May
@lovebuglena Crying is ok. Don't be ashamed of it.
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@Ladanger (14627)
• United States
11 May
I am so sorry for your loss may he Rest In Peace I wish you healing.
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@lovebuglena (35983)
• Staten Island, New York
11 May
Thank you. Trying not to completely fall apart.
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@Ladanger (14627)
• United States
11 May
@lovebuglena the mylot community is here for you
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@kaylachan (34292)
• Daytona Beach, Florida
11 May
Losing a parent or loved one is never easy, but at least he's never really that far from you and you can talk to him when you want. I wish you the best of luck with putting him in his final resting place.
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@lovebuglena (35983)
• Staten Island, New York
12 May
Thank you. He will always be close to me I hope.
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@kaylachan (34292)
• Daytona Beach, Florida
12 May
@lovebuglena I know he will be. The ones we love are never far from our hearts. So sorry, that was just yesterday, right?
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@much2say (54886)
• Los Angeles, California
12 May
I am so sorry about your loss. I do take it to heart as we talked about your dad not too long ago. Thinking of you and your family .
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@lovebuglena (35983)
• Staten Island, New York
12 May
Thank you. It’s hard to wrap my head around this.
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@much2say (54886)
• Los Angeles, California
12 May
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@JudyEv (278719)
• Rockingham, Australia
12 May
I am so, so sorry to hear this. It's awful to lose a parent. My sincere condolences.
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@lovebuglena (35983)
• Staten Island, New York
12 May
Thank you. Still hard to believe. Have the urge to call him but know I can’t.
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@JimBo452020 (43480)
• United Kingdom
12 May
So sorry for your loss Lena.
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@lovebuglena (35983)
• Staten Island, New York
12 May
Thank you. He went on his own so we did not have to make that difficult choice...
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@1creekgirl (31882)
• United States
12 May
Oh Lena, I am so very sorry. You will always have those special memories of him.
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@lovebuglena (35983)
• Staten Island, New York
12 May
Thank you. Gonna try to look back on things we did together.
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@LeaPea2417 (33792)
• Toccoa, Georgia
11 May
I'm very sorry to read this. Age 70 is not old.
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@lovebuglena (35983)
• Staten Island, New York
12 May
Yeah. I was hoping he’d at least make it to his birthday.
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@franxav (12834)
• India
11 May
My condolences. May God give you strength to bear the pain of losing your father.
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@lovebuglena (35983)
• Staten Island, New York
12 May
Thank you. All I wanna do is cry.
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@KristenH (32140)
• Cuyahoga Falls, Ohio
11 May
Oh no! I'm so sad to hear this my friend. You and your family are in my prayers and have my deepest condolences.
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@lovebuglena (35983)
• Staten Island, New York
12 May
Thank you. Tomorrow will tough for sure.
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@kobesbuddy (150716)
• East Tawas, Michigan
12 May
When my father passed away, I have an empty space within my heart. Noone else can ever fill that place! Yet, he's in heaven with the Lord! I'm sorry that your father was taken, at an early age:(
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@lovebuglena (35983)
• Staten Island, New York
19 May
Thank you! Gone too soon. But at least he is at peace. Now I wonder if keeping on a ventilator for over a month was a good idea in the end.
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@kobesbuddy (150716)
• East Tawas, Michigan
19 May
@lovebuglena At any time, he might have done a turn around, physically. It could have happened, but it didn't.
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@lovebuglena (35983)
• Staten Island, New York
19 May
@kobesbuddy That's the thing. It didn't seem like he was doing better.
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@LadyDuck (393383)
• Switzerland
12 May
I am so sorry for your loss, my sincere condolences. I know how hard it is to lose your Dad.
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@lovebuglena (35983)
• Staten Island, New York
19 May
Thank you. Covid got me last week so I wasn't even able to be sad because I felt like crap. Still not 100% back to normal.
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@LadyDuck (393383)
• Switzerland
20 May
@lovebuglena I am so sorry Lena, Covid also got my niece and her baby girl. I hope you can fully recover soon.
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@LadyDuck (393383)
• Switzerland
21 May
@lovebuglena - Someone surely was positive and contaminated the others.
@LindaOHio (95600)
• United States
12 May
I am so sorry, Lena. I am glad that he's free of that ventilator. My condolences to your family. Sending prayers and thoughts.
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@lovebuglena (35983)
• Staten Island, New York
19 May
Mom told me she asked grandma (his mom) to take him with her and the next day he was gone. Made it easier for us. We didn't have to make that ventilator decision.
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@LindaOHio (95600)
• United States
20 May
@lovebuglena That's so sad. I would not have wanted to make that decision.
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@lovebuglena (35983)
• Staten Island, New York
20 May
@LindaOHio Definitely made things easier for us though it was very heartbreaking when we rushed to the hospital in hopes to catch him still alive and we were about 15 minutes too late.
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@Hannihar (122078)
• Israel
12 May
@lovebuglena That is natural that you would have periods where you would cry off and can't stop. I am so so sorry for your loss. He was young and so close to his 71st birthday. I am so glad you will be able to talk to him when you want. I lost my grandfather when I was 14 years old and still miss him so much today.
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@lovebuglena (35983)
• Staten Island, New York
19 May
This is not how I imagined my dad's life would end.
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@Hannihar (122078)
• Israel
22 May
@lovebuglena I am so so sorry. That must be very hard for you and he was young too.
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@DaddyEvil (81360)
• United States
12 May
I'm very sorry to know this. (I was afraid this was going to happen when we were talking a few days ago.)
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@lovebuglena (35983)
• Staten Island, New York
12 May
Thank you. A terrible loss but at least he is no longer suffering. And we are not faced with the tough choice of turning off ventilator or not. He went on his own.
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@DaddyEvil (81360)
• United States
12 May
@lovebuglena You're very welcome. I hope he passed peacefully. (When my parents passed away they both went peacefully. Dad had a heart attack in his sleep and mom had a stroke and passed while still unconscious.)
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@lovebuglena (35983)
• Staten Island, New York
19 May
@DaddyEvil Oh no! That's terrible. Not sure if he passed away peacefully or not but he definitely suffered in that hospital.
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@snowy22315 (137867)
• United States
12 May
Oh I am so sorry! . God Bless!
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@lovebuglena (35983)
• Staten Island, New York
19 May
Thank you. Still surreal. His phone is still in my contacts. I am tempted to call him and then realize there is no one to call.
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@snowy22315 (137867)
• United States
19 May
@lovebuglena I imagine it will be that way for quite some time.
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@Shiva49 (24413)
• Singapore
12 May
Sorry to hear of your loss. He was not that old to bid goodbye and that makes the loss tougher to get over.
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@lovebuglena (35983)
• Staten Island, New York
19 May
Yes. I was hoping that we'd at least get to celebrate his 71st birthday but didn't work out that way.
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@RebeccasFarm (65437)
• United States
30 May
The only good is that he is nearby you still RIP dear Lenas Dad
@lovebuglena (35983)
• Staten Island, New York
30 May
Thank you! I had an image of my dad on my phone from the hospital where he is connected to that damn ventilator. I guess my mom must have sent it to me at one point. I deleted that. Don't want that in my possession.
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• United States
30 May
@lovebuglena Oh no you dont Lena ..that would not be nice to keep seeing
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@lovebuglena (35983)
• Staten Island, New York
30 May
@RebeccasFarm My mom was taking those kinds of pics of Dad for someone who asked for them. I hope she removed all of them from her phone. She doesn't need to see those.
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